home...

I'm staring out into the night,

trying to hide the pain

I'm going to the place where love

And feeling good don't ever cost a thing

And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

Well, I'm going home,

back to the place where I belong

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I don't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

So I'm going home, well I'm going home

The miles are getting longer,

it seems, the closer I get to you

I've not always been the best man or friend for you

But your love it makes true and I don't know why

You always seem to give me another try

So I'm going home, back to the place where I belong

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I don't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

Be careful what you wish for 'cause you just might get it all

You just might get it all and then some you don't want

Be careful what you wish for 'cause you just might get it all

You just might get it all, yeah

Oh, well I'm going home, back to the place where I belong

And where your love has always been enough for me

I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong

I don't regret this life I chose for me

But these places and these faces are getting old

I said these places and these faces are getting old

So I'm going home, I'm going home

Daughtry

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huhu

bila kerja yang ada adalah sangat banyak sampai tak tahu nak buat apa dan akhirnya buka youtube dan berfoya-foya seorang diri

seriously
aku bukannya tak ada kerja
tapi aku dah sangat malas nak buat apa-apa
dan seperti biasa
en youtube adalah teman terbaik
tambah pula dengan tv yang tak berapa sesuai untuk ditonton
tambah lagi dengan tiada laptop which is equal to tak boleh tengok cerita
dan berbekalkan sponsor ipod
dapat juga aku nak ber-youtube segala bagai

oh ye
aku kan suka tengok video orang kahwin
tiba-tiba terfikir
apa ye perasaan bila kita dapat ahli keluarga baru?
seronok ke?
for that to happen
along, achik dan ajan
sila cepat-cepat kahwin



kaukalaubasuhpingganlepasmakanpunmalastakpayahgatalsangatnakkahwinkebersihankansebahagiandaripadaiman

siapamakancilidiaterasapedassiapakentutbusuksemuaorangbolehbau

ok, takde kaitan

Mixed

sangatlah banyak peristiwa yang berlaku lately ni
di saat semua tengah kekalutan dalam lautan assignments dll perkara yang aku malas nak tulis
ada sedikit celahan yang sejujurnya menampar emosi aku
sesetengah perkara tu kadang-kadang terbawa ke mana-mana

setiap perkara tu ada hikmahnya
InsyaAllah
aku percaya
kalau bukan sekarang
Dia tahu bila masa yang terbaik untuk hikmah tu tiba

dan tolong
kalau rasa nak menimbulkan perkara, suasana dan aura negatif
aku minta tolong banyak-banyak
jangan datang dekat dengan aku
seriously
aku ada sangat banyak lagi perkara untuk difikir dan diselesaikan




kenapakadangkadangkitarasamacamada.........


ya Allah
berikan kekuatan dan permudahkan segala urusan
amin

bored+tired+notenoughrest=dontremindmeofthat

this week had been very super duper weird than the weeks before
the starting wasn't common
but i do not consider it as something uncommon as well

already in final year.. bla.. bla..
poor patient management.. bla.. bla..
lots of requirement to be finished.. bla.. bla..
do not meet expectation.. bla.. bla..
and all of sudden
riak (this issue was like i-beg-your-pardon's situation)


and then early in the morning
when i hope to see the sun that shines brightly without any stressor
there it goes my morning
to be reminded of those that killing me inside
to be reminded of how much the hatred was
oh,
come on
i mean like you seriously being that kind of person
are you kidding me?
where on earth that your sense of humanity goes?


i really understand the facts that it is happening
and i do understand that how much it will hurt
because of that
i don't need a reminder
just let it be the way it suppose to be
so the pain can resolve slowly leaving no scar




healing does take time
let the time heals

run away

disebabkan housemate beramai-ramai balik hujung minggu ni
so,
i pun join the club untuk balik ke rumah
a form of running away from all these problem-making-situations

because i know
if i did stay
i will get frustrated with....


balik ke rumah memang terbaik
lagi-lagi mereka baru saja pulang dari kampung
banyak buah
yang terbaik of course manggis
durian berkepuk-kepuk
rambutan.. etc


rasa lega
dah meluahkan sedikit sebanyak kegalauan hati
dah melepaskan bebanan dalam hati
i don't really need a solid solution
i just need someone to hear


idk y
sometimes being close just torn us apart
truth is certainly hard and painful


aku dah rasa tak larat dengan semua ni
jangan sampai satu hari semua benda yang kita dah lalui bersama hanya tinggal kenangan yang menyakitkan
jangan sampai rasa kecewa tu terluah
jangan sampai rasa menyesal tu terbit
jangan sampai....



peningsebabmakanbanyaksangatdurian

pesan dia...

pagi khamis adalah pagi yang dikira agak stressful atas beberapa sebab
tapi sebab musabab yang paling utama biasanya berkaitan dengan kelas yang bermula pukul 8 pagi itu
mungkin sebab mengantuk atau lapar
aku rasakan bahawa kelas pagi tadi ada berbaur emosi sedih dan ada element sebak


memang betul apa yang dekan cakap
point yang satu ni memang tanpa ragu betul
tapi entahlah
mungkin betul
yang kiranya ada basic ilmu agama ni either lalai or lebih teruk tak sedar diri


lecturers selalu cakap pasal value system etc
tapi memang tak nafi
sesetengah perkara tu memang terang lagi bersuluh sangatlah tak tally dengan value system yang dipropose tu


tak payah tuding jari kat orang lain
tengok diri sendiri dulu
ataupun tak payah tengok benda besar
tengok simple things yang ada di sekeliling
boleh kira apa je yang buat accordingly


satu tahap jadi malu
sebab orang yang bukan Islam pun hidup dalam keadaan yang lebih Islam


yang buat aku sedih tadi expression muka and tone suara dean yang memang dengarnya sangat hampa dan kecewa
betul
kadang-kadang kita tak sedar
indirectly
benda yang halal pun boleh jatuh status kalau pengurusan tak betul


mungkin sebab dean tak sihat
lagi rasa terkesan kot dengan kata-kata dia

dejection and rage??

i sometimes hope that i can be even more heartlessso that i don't keep that  anger inside meso that i don't fill my heart with hatredso that i don't need to pretend that i care

i really hate the moment when the distinction student keep on saying"kalau kucingred takpe lah, dia kan...."seriouslyi don't know what is/was/are/were your intention/sfranklyi get annoyedat the same time i do feel offended and insulted

to youi'm sorryindeedi'm truly sorryit wasn't my intention to raise my voice to youfrom the tone and looki know you were mad (and probably still)for that i'm sorrymy alter ego

“All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”

Walt Disney
may all the dreams come trueand may hope bring the dreams closer





ya Rabbisahhilna