bukankah itu yang terbaik buat kamu???

aku hanya manusia biasa

tak lepas dari dosa

dari sudut dosa banyak pulak kategorinya..

yang memang selalu adalah

mengata

complain

marah

puncanya satu

aku kurang sabar

ye

sabar

sabar

sabar

sabar

sabar

sabar

itu yang kurang

sebab tu aku tak henti-henti lakukan benda yang sama

aku tak sabar bila ada orang buat aku sakit hati

aku marah

jadi aku mengata orang tu

aku complain itu dan ini tentang dia

padahal

aku ni obviously not a good friend

lepas dah luahkan sakit hati tu aku pun kata 'sabar je lah'

tapi tu bukan sabar....

buktinya ada di situ

complain....

yes..

i keep up complaining every single thing that happen..

y?

sbb aku tak sabar

complain cavity prep susah la, nak wat rct leceh la, nak wat denture payah la

keep on complaining

kadang-kadang aku kesian kat diri aku sendiri

sebab aku macam hidup ni untuk complain je

hello..

hidup ni untuk beramal ok

bukan untuk complain all the way

walaupun aku memang xde la minat sangat ngan course yang aku amik ni

bukan ke aku patut bersabar???

DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku

jadi kenapa aku perlu complain???

complain

complain

complain

complain

bukan dapat ubah apa-apa

bukan ke lebih baik aku berdoa

moga DIA ikhlaskan hati aku

moga DIA tuntun diri aku

dari complain terus-terusan

xde faedah langsung

dari aku hanya segumpal darah

jadi seketul daging

lalu diciptakan tulang

kemudian ditiupkan roh

lahir pulak ke dunia

masuk tadika

sekolah rendah

sekolah menengah

sekarang kat universiti

bukankah DIA yang merancang semuanya untuk aku??

bukankah DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku??

bukankah DIA menjadikan ini semua bukan sia-sia??

jadi aku hanya perlu sedikit sabar...

ikhlas dan redha datang bersama sabar itu...

bukankah itu yang terbaik buat kamu, kucingred???

haishhh

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it remains

my heart full of hatred

it always so hurt till it can bleed easily

how i wish i can end this pain as soon as i can

how i wish it is so easy for me to escape

how i wish i've never been here

how i wish this place never exist in the first place

yes

it is so hard

too much pain

a lot of hatred

full of bad memories

it's too much

my heart

my soul

my very own thought cannot bear this

I AM SUFFER!!!

i used to cry a lot during my not so good memories of life

it causes pain a lot in my life

and without me realizing it,

it changes my life as well

apart from all those suffer

the pain

the hatred

i found lots of memories that are too sweet to be forgotten

during kuliah session- either kultim(kuliah 3 minit), kuliah maghrib@subuh, tazkirah

during musolla session- hadith, fiqh, berzanji, tasauf

kitab discussion session- apa ertinya saya menganut islam, hadith 40, penawar bagi hati

kemahiran al-quran session- tarannum, qiraat, hafazan

reciting yasin, al-ma'thurat

makan dalam talam

all of this are not forgotten

how i wish to hear cikgu rosli's tazkirah

how i miss all those ustazs to elaborate all the books

how i hope to be reminded everyday like it used to be

and how i wish all of this will come true

the sadness comes with happiness

the pain comes with the cure

the hatred comes with love

the suffer comes with bliss

and the experience comes after all of this :)

12 rabiul awal

Alhamdulillah

bertemu lagi sekali dengan hari kelahiran junjungan besar Muhammad s.a.w

malam tadi kat rumah b16-06 berkumpul macam biasa untuk bacaan yasin..

thanks to zakiah atas peringatan tentang insan yang mulia dan hebat- Nabi Muhammad s.a.w

semoga kita sentiasa diberi kekuatan untuk mengikuti dan mengamalkan sunnah baginda s.a.w

semoga kita semua beroleh syafaat dari baginda di akhirat kelak...

insya-Allah

do you?

do you know when u said that i am always happy

i am crying inside

do you know when ever you said without study i can score

i am study

do you know every time you said i never stress

i am holy tense

do you know when you said you hated what you are doing

i am worst

do you realize every moment that you said you are stupid

i am the one get the lowest mark

it's not me that being hypocrite

it just you that think you know every single thing bout me

do you????

a long journey by train

this morning,

my mum, bro n i went to kl central

to send my lil bro back to his plkn camp in perak

we went there by ktm from kuang to kl central

from kuang station

there were a family consist of ma, pa, 4 boys n a girl

i don't know y both the parents just letting their sons

gaduhing and pukuling each other in that train

the bigger bro tolaking his adik till the lil bro jatuh n kena org lain

n that sis terbangun dari tidur dia ngan muka yg sangat terkejut

and her face was like luckily you are someone else's son

the parents just biarkan je anak2 dia memekak and ganggu gugat ketenangan orang lain

serius tak pakai otak punya orang la

kepong central

a group of teenagers i guess entered the train

with very annoying face n attitude in a public transport

boleh pulak dia n d gang dgn lagu pasang loud speaker

hello bro...this is not ur train okay

an old guy yg stand besides me buat muka ngn mamat tu

tapi leh lak dia buat muka tenuk

yg x leh blah tu

dia siap kuatkan lagi volume speaker tu

serius mmg x sekolah punya orang

kl central

at last

sampai gak dengan hati yang bengang n membara ngn species homo sapiens yang ala-ala x bertamadun tu

after my lil bro berkumpul ngn kwn2 dia

kami pun balik ke rumah

kl central hala balik

we entered the train and my mum sat next to a girl whom sit next to an uncle

in front of the girl is also a girl which is the younger sister..

so, the adik is wearing plkn punya kemeja

and my mum pun sembang la dgn both of the girls

sembang punya sembang sampai la stesen kepong central

one of petugas ktm dtg to check the passenger's ticket

sampai kt 2org beradik n uncle tu;

pakcik ktm: ni 2 ni tiket sapa?

adik: tiket kak n ayah saya

pakcik ktm: ni tak sah ni..tiket ni sampai kl central je..

kakak: kitorg ingat kitorg nak patah balik nanti sebab kitorg bkn nak turun pun...

pakcik ktm: ni salah ni..kena bayar sorg rm30..xadil bagi org lain naik byr tambang tp awak xbyr

ayah: ayah cakap dah tadi..korg xnak dgr

pakcik ktm: xpe la..saya tolong pakcik..bayar je rm30 utk 2orang..

kakak pun bukak dompet tp ada 2/3 keping duit rm1

dia pun amek la duit dlm wallet ayah

mmg btol2 tinggal sekeping rm50

after settle bayar tu

ayah: ayah cakap dah tak boleh..awak degil..awak xnak dengar cakap ayah...nasib baik ayah bawak ni (sambil tunjuk tongkat)..orang tu suruh bayar rm30

kakak: ayah jgn nak salahkan kakak..kakak mana tahu tak boleh..biasa kakak buat xde masalah pun

ayah: ayah naik selama ni pun xde masalah..ayah mmg x sedap hati dari tadi lagi nak jalan ngan korg..ayah sedih..korg degil tak nak dengar cakap ayah..

kakak: nanti kakak ada duit kakak bayar balik la duit ayah tu

ayah: xpayah byr..ayah sedih anak2 xnak dengar cakap ayah

-the father was saying this with tears rolling...

it was sooo sad...

i feel very pity towards that uncle n at da same time i'm sooo mad dekat kakak

my mum terkedu and her face changed

my mum n i wanted to give some money to the uncle but if we do so,

his daughter may be xdapat kesedaran...

can u imagine..

blind...

with no money..

travel...

i hope that uncle had enough money untuk sampai ke destinasi yg sepatutnya dia pergi

what a long~~~ journey by train today......

i'm just a human being

i'm just a human being

correct me if i'm wrong

coz sometimes i don't even know

what i've done is wrong

i'm just a human being

forgive me for not being perfect

coz sometimes i don't even know

what i've done can be better

i'm just a human being

sorry for loosing my temper

coz sometimes i don't even realize

what i've done can hurt others

i'm just a human being

for keeping secrets alone, i'm sorry

coz sometimes i don't even know

what i've done really hurt myself a lot

i'm just a human being

for telling lies, i'm truly sorry

coz sometimes i don't even realize

what i've done is a big mistake

i'm just a human being

for all things that i've done wrongly

i'm sorry

i'm doing this because i wanted the best for all of us

i don't want the past recurred

i don't want you to go through the way i did

i want you to live the way you wanted to

as for that, i wish you never see the past

because

i'm just a human being

when things appear to be... part 1

case 1:

cikgu: pelajar semua hendaklah sentiasa jujur dalam kehidupan seharian. biar pun kadang2 kejujuran kita tu akan melukakan hati sesetengah pihak, tapi kamu semua harus ingat.. jujur merupakan satu perkara yang mulia dalam hidup ni

keesokannya

pelajar: cikgu... kelas hari ni sangat membosankan

cikgu buat muka berkecil hati dan sebelum sempat cikgu berkata sesuatu

pelajar: kan cikgu cakap, jujur merupakan perkara yang mulia dalam hidup. saya terpaksa jujur walaupun saya tahu cikgu akan terluka

case 2

isteri: abang, adik saya yang mengandung tu kan, teringin sangat nak makan rendang air tangan orang ****

suami: okay sayang.. kita balik kg abang ye mintak tolong orang sana buatkan untuk adik sayang..and then, kita pun balik la kg ayang

di kampung si suami

kakak otai: ekau nak, ekau buek sendiri..eden xdo maso..banyak laei bondo yg eden nak buek..baek la eden jago makan minam apak samo omak den..buek apo eden nak gombalo ipar ekau

kakak yg 'mulia': eden buleh tolong buekkan..tp ekau siapkan la brg2 nak buek rondang tu

after 2 rendang siap dimasak

sume pakat balun dan tibai rendang akak otai

rendang akak yg 'mulia' ditinggalkan begitu sahaja

suami n isteri pun tapaukan rendang akak otai k

think....................

i've met this person

we are not too close

i am not bothering myself to know this person better

i am just like the way i know this person

not too close but it's enough for me to tell others that i know this person

i've met that person

we are close

i like that person a lot

i always wanted to know everything about that person

i love the way i know that person

we are close and i know that person better than my other friends

i've met the person

we are not that close

i like the person a lot

i always wanted to know everything about the person

i like the way i know the person

not that close yet i try to know the person better

i've met a person

we are close

i dislike a person

i always avoid to meet a person

i don't like the way we are

i disliking yet a person didn't know

relationship

sometimes it is so hard

but usually it is beautiful

sharing

caring

love

joy

they were never perfect

and so do we

i really appreciate their existence in my life

love them so much

to be frank....

this post is dedicated especially for N (obviously not a real name)

N...

to be frank,

i am really feeling holy annoyed to you

please...

don't ask me why i do feel so

i just want to be HONEST

and not being hypocrite

N...

to be frank,

i am feeling very much to curse you

yeah...

it's true

and i am not lie to you

please...

again don't ask me why i do want to do so

it's just for my SATISFACTION

i wanted you to know that:

- i am a good friend but a bad enemy.

- i am a hot-tempered person.

- i am really hate of hypocrisy.

- i am really hard to hate a person unless s/he keep on repeating the same mistakes after being told not to do so.

'kalau itulah yang lelaki kategorikan sebagai lembut, aku rela tak jadi lembut di mata lelaki sampai bila-bila ~او كما قالت '

if you think you are good,

well..think again...

sorry for the hatred