rentetan 2010

Alhamdulillah, syukur kerana masih lagi diberi peluang olehNya untuk terus bernafas di atas dunia yang penuh tipu daya

entry harini bertujuan untuk recap balik all the things that happen it this year macam yang kat TV3 tadi

akademic and faculty

Alhamdulillah,

-lulus professional exam yang kedua membolehkan naik ke tahun 3

-dapat siapkan all the requirement untuk optech

-pergi clinical attachment and gain a lot of new knowledge

-siap jugak requirement pre-clinical untuk cons

-lulus competency test and start treating patients

kesihatan

-fever, cough and cold

-repeated tonsilitis

-got a tooth rct and failed. already extracted

-got hep b vaccination which was really hurt

-got steroid injection due to allergy to unknown substance

-chipping of (ke fracture?) a distal area of tooth, temporary filled, has a series of severe pain, pulp extirpated and still incomplete treatment

-got a lot of radiation exposure

-got a lot course of antibiotics

-was diagnosed to have several abnormal tooth ______ (structure ke hape ke idk)

feelings

-developing hatred to a guy

-stable hatred to a so-called-professional

there are lots of things to be written

but i'm way too lazy...

to people out there,

selamat tahun baru

semoga tahun 2011 membawa kebaikan yang bertambah kepada kita semua

iAllah :)

kisah aku yang bengang

aku bengang bukan bangang ok!

sebelum ni every time aku naik klinik tingkat 16 nak jumpa dr

diorang akan keep on cakap pergilah buat treatment dengan sr

aku ni tak kisah pun nak buat treatment dengan siapa

it just takde masa lapang nak gi klinik time sr punya klinik

so, sebab nak tolong sr, i went to their clinic petang tadi

in the clinic

hari ni group kak huda disupervisekan oleh dr tersebut

(which aku tak terliur pun nak mention nama dia dalam blog aku ni)

dah la aku memang tak suka dia- point no. 1 untuk aku wat perangai macam najis mukhaffafah

dia pun sememangnya pernah ada isu dengan budak batch aku- point no. 2 untuk aku wat perangai cam najis mutawasitah

dia cakap benda yang obviously unsubstantiated pasal aku (aku memang la pantang sungguh kalau orang yang tak tahu apa-apa ni tapi suka jadi mr/miss-i-know-everything)- point no. 3 untuk aku wat perangai cam najis mughalazah

and i was like wth

ko pehal nak cakap camtu pasal aku

sebab manusia cam hamba Allah ni lah

aku ngan kawan2 aku kena belajar behavioural science macam nak mati

otak tuhan bagi ko tu suh guna untuk fikir

bukan wat pekasam

you are so not professional

bukan sebab apa yang berlaku kat aku je aku cakap macam ni

ko ingat ak tak tahu apa staff kat tingkat 16 tu cakap pasal ko?

i do observe people and what's more important is i am not jumping into conclusion as what you did to me

so childish and way too immature

do feel ashame la wei kata kat orang macam tu

by doing that

you just cleaning up your closet

i'm writing it here so that in the future

i still remember things that happen to me

regarding this field

i really hate dentists

and i hate you!

rage with all my heart

warning: this post may contain impolite words. to those who do not like cruelty, you are advised to leave this page a.s.a.p. tq!

i don't know when this kind of feelings start to develop

YOU!

i am so sorry

i'm very sorry

i've tried with all my heart to forget what you have done to me

but i'm just a so stubborn and super ego 21 years old female

i cannot help myself to forget what had happen

i cannot help myself from hating you

it just cannot be helped!

YOU!

don't ask me where did you go wrong

don't even dare to ask me what are your mistakes

because it just a lot

too long to be listed

and i am too tired to list it for you

YOU!

i don't know what else to do

the feeling of love and friendship that surround us before already fade

not only fade i guess

it breaks

and causing me to suffer a lot of pain

YOU!

i hope you will not do things that will cause me to hate you more

because it is difficult for me to hate people

and guess what

you are tough enough to make me hate you with all my heart

i appreciate your strength

YOU!

for all the sadness from your words

for all the hatred from your actions

for all the negative feelings from what you have done

i forgive you

but,

i am sorry

because along with my forgiveness

i cannot forget all those things

i keep on repeating it in my mind

i am not deleting your messages

so that i will keep on remember what you did and be more careful

am i being too cruel???

kucingred: no, it just a kind of self defense

to YOU!

so sorry i just hate you

bubbye~

tagged by ckin

1st : copy n ltk picx nie.

2nd : pendapat sy ttg blog..

saya rasa kat blog ni saya boleh tulis apa yang saya rasa and maybe write something that cannot be said.. sort of meditation to reduce stress perhaps

3rd : tnjuk gambar dekstop..

kalau dah tukar gambar lain kot baru tunjuk.. segan pulak nak tunjuk

4th : snap picx anda skrg tak kira ap jua keadaan.

next question please!

5th : adkh anda prnh hlg brg tsyang?

if manusia tu consider as barang, yes

if gigi tu consider as barang, double yess

if kepercayaan tu consider as barang, triple yesss

6th : word describe si dia

si dia??? saya tiada kenalan yang bernama si dia... next!!!

7th : anda pandai memasak? bila kali terakhir?

mak saya kata, semua orang pandai masak.. ia antara malas masak or masak tak sedap.. jadi, saya pandai masak..

kali terakhir saya masak adalah isnin, 20/12/2010

8th : tag org laen,10 org.

kalau baca and anda rasa rajin, buatlah... and tell me so that i can pay you a visit.. tq

a long week

minggu ni sangat panjang

terasa sangat panjang

terlalu amat panjang

pengalaman yang menarik untuk dilalui

cuma bukan yang terbaik untuk diingati

thanx to sarah and nurin

sebab temankan saya ke klinik idzham and emergency department hospital ampang

thanx kepada zahrah

sebab bagi saya patient untuk klinik os

thanx again to nurin

for the paediatric patient

tq everybody for your support

to YOU

off you go

i really hate you

and i mean it

go away please

ya Allah

berikan saya kekuatan dan kesabaran

jauhkan perasaan benci dari hati ini

suburkanlah kasih antara hati kami

amin

aku tak tahu!

kenapa lepas aku floss gigi aku akan rasa sakit masa bite?

is it normal or not?

kalau benda yang sama jadi kat patient aku yang floss after aku bagi ohi

aku nak cakap apa kat diorang?

takkan aku nak cakap

"takpe makcik, adik, akak, abang, pakcik

gigi saya pun sakit jugak lepas floss"

kompius la

bukan ke floss tu untuk increase and promote good oral hygiene?

tapi kenapa jadi sakit??

is it normal???

or it just me that being so abnormal?

just a deviation from normal curve???

this feeling is freaking annoying

tulun... tulun... tulun...

professional ke?

professionalism

apakah professionalism tu?

sejenis mamalia?

reptilia?

mungkinkah beliau itu amfibia?

in what manner you judge people is being professional?

their attire?

attitude?

appearance?

as for me

to be honest

i consider people are professional when

they work nicely with the person that they hate

they admit their mistakes even to a less experienced people

they can work under pressure without being stress

they do not assume things

they listen to others even to something which is ridiculous

and one the most important thing is that

they are not being bias and emotional

saya ni bukan seorang yang professional

but i try to be one

k

chow bedah!

saya tak paham dengan masalah gigi saya

saya berharap ianya tiada apa-apa

saya sangat risau

sekian

i am a human being

i am a human being

smile

laugh

cry

i have done

i am a human being

happy

satisfy

tense

i do feel

i am a human being

family

friends

animals

i might rude

i am a human being

stop this nonsense kucingred!

aku tak punya kekuatan

ya Allah

bila fikir klinik prostho je rasa cam nak nangis

aku tak punya kekuatan utk berhadapan dengan klinik prostho

aku rasa tak berdaya

mampu ke aku nak puaskan hati patient and hati aku sendiri?

Allah,

berikan kekuatan

ya Allah

andai itu yang terbaik bagiku

permudahkanlah

andai itu bukan untukku

jauhkanlah

perkenankanlah ya Allah

sometimes choices are too difficult for a decision to be made

i'm just 21

choices are not something for me to think of (at least for the time being la)

i know i'm being too immature

but i just don't know how to make the right choice

so that in the future i don't regret things i've chose

i am in dilemma

help me!!!

berita dah basi

dilanda kemalasan- tiada alasan kukuh

kg cheras baru, 7 dec- seorang pelajar fakulti pergigian u*** telah dikenalpasti menghadapi kemalasan yang teramat terutama menjelang hari khamis kerana perlu hadir ke klinik prosthodontics. beliau yang hanya ingin dikenali sebagai kucingred berkata bahawa beliau memang tidak menggemari klinik tersebut lantaran ketelitian yang diperlukan sepanjang proses penghasilan gigi palsu. selain itu, beliau yang sememangnya terkenal dengan kemalasan berkata bahawa beliau bukanlah seorang yang teliti, justeru mengurangkan lagi kesungguhan beliau dalam menghasilkan gigi palsu. tambahan pula, daya kreativiti yang rendah menyebabkan beliau tidak dapat membayangkan tanda tempat anatomi (anatomical landmark) pesakit beliau dengan baik. bagaimanapun menurut seorang pensyarah beliau yang tidak ingin dikenali, tiada alasan yang kukuh telah dinyatakan kucingred tentang kemalasan itu. seorang rakan beliau turut mengulas tentang sikap malas yang ternyata sudah sebati dengan jiwa beliau. rakan beliau yang hanya ingin dikenali sebagai W berkata "mungkin kehadiran seseorang yang istimewa dapat mengubah sikap kucingred." - ternama

i don't get it

i don't get it

why you are being so irrational and irresponsible

you are looking so nice

yet you are just the same

now i know

why they mention

"don't ever judge a book by its cover"

and this is the reason

FULL STOP!