# 13

to whom it may concern

i don't know why you did that to me

frankly speaking

i never knew if i done you wrong

i never thought of something bad upon you

and i thought you are unique

i respected you a lot before this

but

honestly

after what had happen between us

i feel so sad

i never thought that you can do this to me

for the first time you did it

i still can stand myself from thinking something bad

when it come to the second time

i am shocked

and even i am hurt

i still telling myself not to hate you

and the third incidence really makes it inevitable

yes you!

the hatred is inevitable

i really wanted to know so badly why did you do this to me

where did i go wrong?

where did i do wrong?

you tell me

my respect to you also fade as these incidence happen

how i wish i never see you in the first place

how i wish that person was there in the first place

how i wish i didn't cry in the first place

how i wish i can bear the pain myself in the first place

so that the first incidence never happen in the first place

so that i still can show some respect to you

so that i am neutral with you

so that i am not hating you this much

i am sorry for hating you

but

i am merely a human being

i have feelings and emotions

and your actions are way too mean for a very-pampered-21-years-old-me

sorry again

how i wish i can forgive and forget things