hypocrisy kills identity

hypocrisy....

i do think that i am a hypocrite person

booo me

slap me

and kick me

still it does not change any

i am too hypocrite i guess

to pretend like nothing is bothering me

to pretend like i don't mind

to pretend like i don't care

but deep inside

nothing and no one (except for Him)

that could really understand what i feel

i am a good self-lier

i lied myself by being happy

i lied myself by ignoring things

i lied myself by smiling all day long

yes

i am being denial to my own feelings

and i don't know why

i am expressive over stupid things

but somehow being inexpressive towards different things in life

ya Allah

saya pohon hati yang tabah dan ikhlas

serta hati yang sentiasa redha dengan perkara yang mendatang dalam kehidupan saya

juga setitis sabar dalam diri ini

mak, ayah

angah rindu

tolong bawa angah keluar dari masalah ini....

kucingred

ikhlaskan hati kamu

redha dengan apa yang ada

sabar dengan ujian

tabah dengan dugaan

ma'at taufiq wan najah!