Sunday, February 24, 2013

Another random things

It's nearly a month since last semester final exam
Which already been nearly a month my grandmother leave us all for good

Loosing someone is sad
But not being able to keep move on is worst

So, I've spent most of the semester break back in hometown

Things are different
The emotions
The surrounding
Even attitude

Not being there during the incidence had driven my feelings away from what others might have experienced
They certainly have their own sadness and pain
So, same goes to me

I'm used to similar situation and scenario
Well, not exactly the same
It was more or less playing with the same emotion

And Alhamdulillah
Allah give me strength to face the sadness
He even poured me with happiness by giving me a satisfactory grade for my favourite subjects
He sent a lot of  love messages from numbers of medium- making me realize how lucky I am for things to happen that way

My brother and my mom did asked me
If thing did turn out differently
What will happen to me?
Allah knows what will happen
So, things turn out the way it did
He spares my feeling during the examination
And He gives me a wonderful lesson

As I've been reading some book
I've found an interesting part of an originally a poem
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference"

Before it's too late
I just want to say
I love you
I'm so sorry
Thank you so much

Congratulation Zakiah, Yumni dah masuk umur sebulan..
Moga membesar jadi mujahidah solehah :)

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Dia lebih mengerti

exam dah habis


i never had the chance to ask what did she feels about me
i never had the chance to say my apology
i never had the chance to thanks for things that she did
i never had the chance to create lots of memory

i'm glad that cons class was cancelled during that study leave
for it i decided to run away to settle the manuscript
i'm glad that i chose to run away to settle the manuscript
for it i decided to call my parents
i'm glad that i called my parents
for it i decided to go to my hometown
and i'm glad that i insisted to be in gv on sunday
for it i had the opportunity to take exams

kita merancang
Allah juga merancang
Allah jualah sebaik-baik perancang

thank you family for you to spare my feelings
for sending me your prays when you are torn
for sending me thousand of cherish words while you were cried

thank you for giving birth to my mother
for which without her i will never be here
regardless the distance
this one spot in my heart will always be yours

minta maaf
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