Sunday, February 28, 2010

bukankah itu yang terbaik buat kamu???

aku hanya manusia biasa
tak lepas dari dosa

dari sudut dosa banyak pulak kategorinya..
yang memang selalu adalah
mengata
complain
marah

puncanya satu
aku kurang sabar

ye
sabar
sabar
sabar
sabar
sabar
sabar

itu yang kurang
sebab tu aku tak henti-henti lakukan benda yang sama

aku tak sabar bila ada orang buat aku sakit hati
aku marah
jadi aku mengata orang tu
aku complain itu dan ini tentang dia
padahal
aku ni obviously not a good friend
lepas dah luahkan sakit hati tu aku pun kata 'sabar je lah'
tapi tu bukan sabar....
buktinya ada di situ

complain....
yes..
i keep up complaining every single thing that happen..
y?
sbb aku tak sabar
complain cavity prep susah la, nak wat rct leceh la, nak wat denture payah la
keep on complaining

kadang-kadang aku kesian kat diri aku sendiri
sebab aku macam hidup ni untuk complain je
hello..
hidup ni untuk beramal ok
bukan untuk complain all the way

walaupun aku memang xde la minat sangat ngan course yang aku amik ni
bukan ke aku patut bersabar???
DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku
jadi kenapa aku perlu complain???
complain
complain
complain
complain
bukan dapat ubah apa-apa
bukan ke lebih baik aku berdoa
moga DIA ikhlaskan hati aku
moga DIA tuntun diri aku
dari complain terus-terusan
xde faedah langsung

dari aku hanya segumpal darah
jadi seketul daging
lalu diciptakan tulang
kemudian ditiupkan roh
lahir pulak ke dunia
masuk tadika
sekolah rendah
sekolah menengah
sekarang kat universiti
bukankah DIA yang merancang semuanya untuk aku??
bukankah DIA lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku??
bukankah DIA menjadikan ini semua bukan sia-sia??
jadi aku hanya perlu sedikit sabar...
ikhlas dan redha datang bersama sabar itu...

bukankah itu yang terbaik buat kamu, kucingred???

haishhh

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Friday, February 26, 2010

it remains

my heart full of hatred
it always so hurt till it can bleed easily
how i wish i can end this pain as soon as i can
how i wish it is so easy for me to escape
how i wish i've never been here
how i wish this place never exist in the first place

yes
it is so hard
too much pain
a lot of hatred
full of bad memories
it's too much
my heart
my soul
my very own thought cannot bear this
I AM SUFFER!!!

i used to cry a lot during my not so good memories of life
it causes pain a lot in my life
and without me realizing it,
it changes my life as well

apart from all those suffer
the pain
the hatred
i found lots of memories that are too sweet to be forgotten

during kuliah session- either kultim(kuliah 3 minit), kuliah maghrib@subuh, tazkirah
during musolla session- hadith, fiqh, berzanji, tasauf
kitab discussion session- apa ertinya saya menganut islam, hadith 40, penawar bagi hati
kemahiran al-quran session- tarannum, qiraat, hafazan
reciting yasin, al-ma'thurat
makan dalam talam

all of this are not forgotten
how i wish to hear cikgu rosli's tazkirah
how i miss all those ustazs to elaborate all the books
how i hope to be reminded everyday like it used to be
and how i wish all of this will come true

the sadness comes with happiness
the pain comes with the cure
the hatred comes with love
the suffer comes with bliss
and the experience comes after all of this :)

12 rabiul awal

Alhamdulillah

bertemu lagi sekali dengan hari kelahiran junjungan besar Muhammad s.a.w
malam tadi kat rumah b16-06 berkumpul macam biasa untuk bacaan yasin..
thanks to zakiah atas peringatan tentang insan yang mulia dan hebat- Nabi Muhammad s.a.w
semoga kita sentiasa diberi kekuatan untuk mengikuti dan mengamalkan sunnah baginda s.a.w
semoga kita semua beroleh syafaat dari baginda di akhirat kelak...
insya-Allah

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

do you?

do you know when u said that i am always happy
i am crying inside

do you know when ever you said without study i can score
i am study

do you know every time you said i never stress
i am holy tense

do you know when you said you hated what you are doing
i am worst

do you realize every moment that you said you are stupid
i am the one get the lowest mark

it's not me that being hypocrite
it just you that think you know every single thing bout me

do you????

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

a long journey by train

this morning,
my mum, bro n i went to kl central
to send my lil bro back to his plkn camp in perak
we went there by ktm from kuang to kl central

from kuang station
there were a family consist of ma, pa, 4 boys n a girl
i don't know y both the parents just letting their sons
gaduhing and pukuling each other in that train
the bigger bro tolaking his adik till the lil bro jatuh n kena org lain
n that sis terbangun dari tidur dia ngan muka yg sangat terkejut
and her face was like luckily you are someone else's son
the parents just biarkan je anak2 dia memekak and ganggu gugat ketenangan orang lain
serius tak pakai otak punya orang la

kepong central
a group of teenagers i guess entered the train
with very annoying face n attitude in a public transport
boleh pulak dia n d gang dgn lagu pasang loud speaker
hello bro...this is not ur train okay
an old guy yg stand besides me buat muka ngn mamat tu
tapi leh lak dia buat muka tenuk
yg x leh blah tu
dia siap kuatkan lagi volume speaker tu
serius mmg x sekolah punya orang

kl central
at last
sampai gak dengan hati yang bengang n membara ngn species homo sapiens yang ala-ala x bertamadun tu
after my lil bro berkumpul ngn kwn2 dia
kami pun balik ke rumah

kl central hala balik
we entered the train and my mum sat next to a girl whom sit next to an uncle
in front of the girl is also a girl which is the younger sister..
so, the adik is wearing plkn punya kemeja
and my mum pun sembang la dgn both of the girls
sembang punya sembang sampai la stesen kepong central
one of petugas ktm dtg to check the passenger's ticket
sampai kt 2org beradik n uncle tu;

pakcik ktm: ni 2 ni tiket sapa?
adik: tiket kak n ayah saya
pakcik ktm: ni tak sah ni..tiket ni sampai kl central je..
kakak: kitorg ingat kitorg nak patah balik nanti sebab kitorg bkn nak turun pun...
pakcik ktm: ni salah ni..kena bayar sorg rm30..xadil bagi org lain naik byr tambang tp awak xbyr
ayah: ayah cakap dah tadi..korg xnak dgr
pakcik ktm: xpe la..saya tolong pakcik..bayar je rm30 utk 2orang..

kakak pun bukak dompet tp ada 2/3 keping duit rm1
dia pun amek la duit dlm wallet ayah
mmg btol2 tinggal sekeping rm50

after settle bayar tu
ayah: ayah cakap dah tak boleh..awak degil..awak xnak dengar cakap ayah...nasib baik ayah bawak ni (sambil tunjuk tongkat)..orang tu suruh bayar rm30
kakak: ayah jgn nak salahkan kakak..kakak mana tahu tak boleh..biasa kakak buat xde masalah pun
ayah: ayah naik selama ni pun xde masalah..ayah mmg x sedap hati dari tadi lagi nak jalan ngan korg..ayah sedih..korg degil tak nak dengar cakap ayah..
kakak: nanti kakak ada duit kakak bayar balik la duit ayah tu
ayah: xpayah byr..ayah sedih anak2 xnak dengar cakap ayah

-the father was saying this with tears rolling...

it was sooo sad...
i feel very pity towards that uncle n at da same time i'm sooo mad dekat kakak
my mum terkedu and her face changed
my mum n i wanted to give some money to the uncle but if we do so,
his daughter may be xdapat kesedaran...

can u imagine..
blind...
with no money..
travel...

i hope that uncle had enough money untuk sampai ke destinasi yg sepatutnya dia pergi

what a long~~~ journey by train today......

i'm just a human being

i'm just a human being
correct me if i'm wrong
coz sometimes i don't even know
what i've done is wrong

i'm just a human being
forgive me for not being perfect
coz sometimes i don't even know
what i've done can be better

i'm just a human being
sorry for loosing my temper
coz sometimes i don't even realize
what i've done can hurt others

i'm just a human being
for keeping secrets alone, i'm sorry
coz sometimes i don't even know
what i've done really hurt myself a lot

i'm just a human being
for telling lies, i'm truly sorry
coz sometimes i don't even realize
what i've done is a big mistake

i'm just a human being
for all things that i've done wrongly
i'm sorry
i'm doing this because i wanted the best for all of us
i don't want the past recurred
i don't want you to go through the way i did
i want you to live the way you wanted to
as for that, i wish you never see the past
because
i'm just a human being

Saturday, February 13, 2010

when things appear to be... part 1

case 1:

cikgu: pelajar semua hendaklah sentiasa jujur dalam kehidupan seharian. biar pun kadang2 kejujuran kita tu akan melukakan hati sesetengah pihak, tapi kamu semua harus ingat.. jujur merupakan satu perkara yang mulia dalam hidup ni

keesokannya

pelajar: cikgu... kelas hari ni sangat membosankan
cikgu buat muka berkecil hati dan sebelum sempat cikgu berkata sesuatu
pelajar: kan cikgu cakap, jujur merupakan perkara yang mulia dalam hidup. saya terpaksa jujur walaupun saya tahu cikgu akan terluka


case 2

isteri: abang, adik saya yang mengandung tu kan, teringin sangat nak makan rendang air tangan orang ****
suami: okay sayang.. kita balik kg abang ye mintak tolong orang sana buatkan untuk adik sayang..and then, kita pun balik la kg ayang

di kampung si suami
kakak otai: ekau nak, ekau buek sendiri..eden xdo maso..banyak laei bondo yg eden nak buek..baek la eden jago makan minam apak samo omak den..buek apo eden nak gombalo ipar ekau
kakak yg 'mulia': eden buleh tolong buekkan..tp ekau siapkan la brg2 nak buek rondang tu

after 2 rendang siap dimasak
sume pakat balun dan tibai rendang akak otai
rendang akak yg 'mulia' ditinggalkan begitu sahaja
suami n isteri pun tapaukan rendang akak otai k

Friday, February 12, 2010

think....................

i've met this person
we are not too close
i am not bothering myself to know this person better
i am just like the way i know this person
not too close but it's enough for me to tell others that i know this person

i've met that person
we are close
i like that person a lot
i always wanted to know everything about that person
i love the way i know that person
we are close and i know that person better than my other friends

i've met the person
we are not that close
i like the person a lot
i always wanted to know everything about the person
i like the way i know the person
not that close yet i try to know the person better

i've met a person
we are close
i dislike a person
i always avoid to meet a person
i don't like the way we are
i disliking yet a person didn't know

relationship
sometimes it is so hard
but usually it is beautiful

sharing
caring
love
joy

they were never perfect
and so do we

i really appreciate their existence in my life
love them so much


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

to be frank....

this post is dedicated especially for N (obviously not a real name)

N...
to be frank,
i am really feeling holy annoyed to you

please...
don't ask me why i do feel so
i just want to be HONEST
and not being hypocrite

N...
to be frank,
i am feeling very much to curse you
yeah...
it's true
and i am not lie to you

please...
again don't ask me why i do want to do so
it's just for my SATISFACTION

i wanted you to know that:
- i am a good friend but a bad enemy.
- i am a hot-tempered person.
- i am really hate of hypocrisy.
- i am really hard to hate a person unless s/he keep on repeating the same mistakes after being told not to do so.

'kalau itulah yang lelaki kategorikan sebagai lembut, aku rela tak jadi lembut di mata lelaki sampai bila-bila ~او كما قالت '

if you think you are good,
well..think again...

sorry for the hatred