Tuesday, October 26, 2010

making decision

right now i'm trying to make a wise decision

and i think that i'm going to give it up

and in order for me to do so

i'm preparing myself mentally, physically and emotionally

seriously, this is a hard and tough decision

and i'm thinking of letting 'you' go

and if that thing happen

i hope it is the best for both 'you' and me

but right now

i'm trying hardly to cope and tolerate

praying that 'you' would not leave me

but i'm also preparing for the worst thing that could happen

for the time being

i would like to say that

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY 35 DEARIE
you will never be replaced

unless if i think of making denture in the future
but for the time being
i guess no

tolong doakan 35 saya

tq in advance

Sunday, October 24, 2010

memories

hari jumaat lepas third year students of fpg usim ada exam muamalat
exam kat dewan kuliah al-quds
and i would like to write something about this lecture hall

i still remember the first day in faculty of dentistry
at that time
lecture hall ni takde lagi meja and kerusi macam sekarang ni
and at that time
still no name
it was empty
hanya ada carpet biru yang menutup lantai
and masa tu we all second batch
lecture kat bilik tutorial sebelah tu

tak lama lepas tu
lecture hall tu pun dah ada meja and kerusi
still we all occupy bilik tutorial tu je
kata mereka
lecture hall itu untuk student first year tahun berikut

lecture hall itu kami occupy masa exam
sejuk sangat masa tu
sampai biru jari-jemari
muka pun naik kebas sebab sejuk sangat

masa senior nak exam pro ke2
bilik tutorial jadi dewan exam
kami pun diarah pindah ke makmal komputer yang for sure time tu takde lagi komputer
tetap
lecture hall itu tidak kami gunakan

tapi
lecture hall al-quds lah yang paling banyak simpan kenangan
saya tak tahu kenapa
tapi ramai orang yang menangis dalam lecture hall al-quds
and i am one of them
dia semacam ada satu ketenangan bila duduk dalam al-quds tu
and then nangis
and i do think that kat fpg ni lecture hall al-quds still the best port untuk nangis

masa first year dulu
bila dapat result teruk
gi al-quds, nangis
dapat carry mark teruk
gi al-quds, nangis
bila depression
gi al-quds, nangis
rasa give up
gi al-quds, nangis
pendek kata bila ada burst of emotions
al-quds lah tempat air mata tu jatuh

bila batch baru dah daftar
mereka occupy al-quds
masa tu lecture hall ni baru je dapat nama
kita pun dah jarang-jarang masuk al-quds
tapi tetap
saya sayang al-quds

sampai bila-bila
saya tetap sukakan lecture hall al-quds

Friday, October 22, 2010

explosion of emotions

burst of emotions
eyes are full of tears
no words can be spoken
no sentences can be written

so childish
too pampered
way too immature

thank you Allah
for another test
another day
another feelings

jalan-jalan di kota melaka
adoi.. jariku terluka

kalau menangis tentulah sedih
jari itu terlalu pedih

ada buku mari membaca
luka jariku terkena kaca

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

masalah yang takkan berhenti

esok adalah last klinik we all untuk sem ni
tiap-tiap kali klinik prostho memang akan rasa berdebar
berdebar sebab rasa diri ni tak mampu nak puaskan hati patient yang datang

minggu depan saya ada appointment dengan doktor
takut
tapi kena la jumpa doktor jugak

hari jumaat ni ada exam muamalat
tapi serius otak kitorang tersangat kosong
tiada memori subjek tersebut melainkan mengantuk, bersembang dan yang seangkatan dengannya

ya Allah
permudahkan urusan kami

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

assignment bhsc

setelah dibebel
setelah dato' naik berang
barulah terketar-ketar tangan nak menaip
baru terhegeh-hegeh nak mencari
(tak la terhegeh-hegeh pun sebab memang tak jumpa masa cari tu)

akhirnya
setelah dapat artikel yang dicari
menggunakan khidmat google translate yang sungguh membantu
tolong terjemah dari bahasa portugis kepada inggeris ye cik google
akhirnya
menarik nafas kelegaan

Alhamdulillah
tq Allah

Sunday, October 17, 2010

family is the best remedy

critical situations
when you feel like crying and totally out of it
family is the best remedy

you're not saying words to express your feelings
you don't need to cry in order for them to understand
they just know
cause family is the best remedy

it's not their words of advices
not the hug that comfort and protect you
it's just because they are family
and family is the best remedy

indeed, family is the best remedy