another story

susah sangat nak jelaskan perkara dekat individu yang pandai
sebab apa yang kita terang tu memang tak memenuhi expectation dia

susah juga nak bagi nasihat dekat orang yang baik
sebab dia terlalu baik untuk menerima nasihat dari orang kebanyakan

susah nak tegur orang yang selalu betul
sebab tak ada reason kenapa bila dia betul orang nak tegur


aku memang sangat kejam
full stop!

suara ku berharap

di sini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
aku tanpamu, aku tanpamu

bila esok hari datang lagi
ku cuba tuk hadapi semua ini
meski tanpamu oh meski tanpamu

bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
mentari yang tenang bersamamu di sini
ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku selalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

kalau ku masih tetap di sini
ku lewati semua yang terjadi
aku menunggumu, aku menunggu

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku selalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku

am not being judgmental
neither being too emotional
just do understand that
sila cakap serupa bikin
and i'll respect you more

mimpi yang indah

Telah ku lalui jalan berduri 
Sejuta harapan terus ku pertahankan
Bukan mudah menggapai bintang
Bersilih dugaan mendatang 
Di sebalik kepayahan
Di situlah kekuatan
Tekad hati azimat di perjalanan
Mengejar impian
Pabila laluan seakan sukar 
Bagai tak terdaya untuk terus bertahan
Namun kasihMu menyedarkan
Aku tak pernah sendirian
Di sebalik kepayahan
Di situlah kekuatan
Tekad hati azimat di perjalanan
TInggi langit mimpi ini
Tak ku ragu untuk membuktikan
Indah bintang yang terang bukan khayalan
Tetapi kenyataan 
Akan kau saksikan kesulitan ini
pasti berganti kebahagiaan
Telah pun kau dengar kisahku ini
Pernahkah cuba kau mengerti

do you????

just like you
i can't surf into someone's heart and dig all the feelings
trust me
neither me, nor you can do this
as sometimes
what is expressed is totally differ from what is inside
and yet
you can proudly said you understand me that much


do you?



sorry for what had happen
it's just sometimes too difficult to be handled
trust me
it's not that easy as what being said



i really am trying so hard to prevent the development of hatred
so, please
help me

arrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!


insyaAllah
everything will be just fine

kejam

bila aku cuba memahami kau
tolong bagi kerjasama
jangan sampai timbul dalam hati aku persepsi
yang kau tu manusia bodoh lagi sombong
sebab aku boleh jadi individu yang baik
dan masa yang sama aku boleh menghanjingkan kau tanpa belas kasihan
yang pasti
tak kira siapa pun kau
kalau aku dah start fikir macam tu
that's it

aku tak minta kau faham aku
tapi aku minta ruang untuk aku faham kau
is it too much to ask for?

rambles

i'm just an ordinary person

when things are out of control

mixture of emotions is inevitable

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bercakap dengan yang tuli kadang-kadang lebih baik dari yang mendengar

mendengar dari yang bisu kadang-kadang lebih mudah berbanding yang bersuara

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thanx to everybody for all those soothing words and all those hands and ears

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Allah menakdirkan sesuatu itu, tepat pada masanya, paling sesuai pada ketikanya, di saat kita sudah bersedia

(quoted from someone)

oleh sebab yang demikian.. aku yakin dan percaya

1. sekarang ni bukan masanya lagi

2. bukan pada ketika ini

3. aku belum bersedia

4. ia memang belum lagi rezeki aku

la tahzan kucingred

innallaha ma'ana

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thank you Allah for another day, another story

it's been repeated again and again


i know
i should trust my instinct in the first place



it's just so unexplained






tbh
this isn't the first
and it can't be the last

it's not cool at all

jangan gunakan agama sebagai landasan untuk buat dosa
it's not cool at all


janganlah mempersendakan agama





anda bijak jauhi zina


sekian

melukakan, dilukai, terluka

nyata...
hati manusia ini hanya dipegang Allah
iman yang rapuh membawa aku ke sini
menguntai bait-bait kata untuk meluah rasa
sungguh
jalan keluar itu amat banyak
atau seperti pengecut
lari dan berhenti di perjalanan
dengan penuh pengharapan berharap hilangnya kegalauan
walau seketika cuma

ikhlas
memang sukar
pada ketika marah terasa
ungkitan itu menjadi-jadi
hingga terlupa dahulunya
bukan mereka yang meminta-minta
tetapi kita yang ingin memberi

sabar
memanglah payah
terutama bila berhadapan dengan yang dibenci
bila terkenang memori duka
bila teringat dia yang mengecewakan
bila mengenang semua pengorbanan
dan akhirnya kita yang terluka

hormat
rasa hilang
jadi pudar
bertukar benci
bila hilang kepercayaan
kerana satu perbezaan








































kenapa aku selalu rasa terluka dengan orang yang sama?
kenapa aku dilukai orang yang sama?
kenapa yang melukakan tu mesti dia yang sama?


waaaaa
tak suka!

emo

if i can accept you for who you are
regardless everything i didn't and don't like from you
why can't you do the same?
life is not only about you

pathetic me

royan...

jom ambik public health



sebab

aku nak jadi boss




aku tak nak buat prostho


tak mahu scaling


tak nak pening2 wat shade selection untuk anterior teeth punya restoration


tak nak sakit kepala dengan karenah budak-budak



oral medicine pun ok kot...

oral surgery paling best kot
tapi rasanya tak mampu
sebab aku malas nak baca buku



ortho pun cam best
tapi...
tak tahulah









p/s: kemeroyanan sebab pening nak wat report elektif :(

please, make it clear!

have you ever been in the situation where you are meant to express something
but then it appears to be understood as something else
and you are not been given any opportunity to explain yourself from the situation
and you are being marked as something that are so unpleasant
and to make thing worst
it is keeping on being mention as if you had already dead without them thinking of how would you feel on that repetition

pathetic
it was and is the word to describe things
that had happen to tear us apart
it is and was the word that worth tears
that had happen with a misunderstanding

when i used to be confident
you said that i am cocky
when i am being humble
you said that people will loose their confident in me

one thing that i want right now is
for you to tell me what should i do
in order to meet your expectation
and not hurting myself again and again

ouch!!! that's hurt!

it's just pain

pain to swallow the truth

pain to learn the fact

pain to know that things wouldn't be the same

just accepting the fact that i am not comparable with you

i know you are good while i'm not

so, stop making me feel bad

and stop making me sad

is it too much to ask for?

ramble

sometimes it's just so hard to move on...

especially when someone has a very high expectation from you

it does sometime seems like i don't care

in fact i do mind

don't make me feel guilty for what had happen

and don't make me sad by not meeting the expectations

i'm merely a human being

i do make mistakes

and i'm still learning

i'm a student, not a dentist yet

and i kind of dislike the compare and `contra' session (you know what i mean)

i really do mean it

o Allah please ease our way

insyaAllah

rabbi sahhilna

di sebalik kepayahan

di situlah kekuatan

tekad hati azimat di perjalanan

menuju impian

-mimpiyangindah@mestica-

something....

don't touch someone's heart if you don't mean it

we are old and mature enough to take things seriously

a lil bit emo there

p/s: just another writing in expressing someone's feeling

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let us pray together for safety and guidance from Allah

one of my seniors was diagnosed with stage II bone cancer

please pray for him as well

thanx :)

discriminate...antara sedar atau tidak

dealing with human being

with some-one

some that can talk

can think

can express

have emotions

have feelings

and for being one

for some reasons

i've discriminate

believe it or not

for at least

once

it can't be helped

and being judgmental it is

keeping in the very own mind

hoping it will ends soon

in fact it doesn't

and keep on growing

like being nurture happily

haha

how sarcastic it is

hoping for changes

while there were no efforts

and still hoping

without realizing

how important being neutral

solving problems

and soothing mind

but sometimes

IT CAN'T BE HELPED!

p/s: i just want to write and i wrote things randomly.. no hard feelings :)