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tiba-tiba terfikir
mungkin 2nd or middle child syndrome tu ada kebenarannya
mungkin sekadar kebetulan


pink eye yang bertukar menjadi red eye membuahkan 1 hari mc
dapat prescription amoxy 500mg tds agak menggusarkan hati
kata buku bacterial conjunctivitis tak menyebabkan photosensitive
entahlah


mimpi terkadang sangat menakutkan
terkadang begitu meyakinkan
terkadang teramat memenatkan

and i hope that...

entah kenapa atau bagaimana
tiba-tiba saja beberapa hari yang lepas gigi itu menjadi sakit
ambil ponstan pun masih tak mampu nak melegakan kesakitan
membuatkan diri sendiri menjadi stress
lalu pergilah sebagai walk-in
mengharap untuk dilakukan apa-apa
or at least
a prescription


it is sad to see how things happen
i was there complaining of pain
as i am supposed to know what should be asked from patients
i as a patient give quite a good history to the attending practitioner


what makes me feel horribly sad is that the conclusion that was made by the attending practitioner
- i cannot sleep not because of the pain, but because i was remembering so called bf (and i think i myself should know if i had any)
- i cannot took pain meds stronger than PCM (so i was wondering why on earth someone in this world keep on improving the drugs)
- i was told not to give any respond when the practitioner examine me.. but the funniest thing is when i don't respond, the practitioner said' "ha, kan tak ada yang sakit"
and there are much more to be written on my dissatisfaction towards that



i still remember back then one of the lecturer said
"to let your patient leave with pain is to fail as a doctor"
and  yes
as a patient to that person
i feel that the person is failing me



apa-apa je la kan
and i hope that none of us will be that kind of doctor
what a joke
and what a shame


dan yang paling penting
tolong la fikir pasal dosa and pahala
tak rasa berdosa ke biarkan patient balik
and membuatkan mereka susah nak beribadah sebab kena bear the pain


lu fikir la sendiri....

Never Say Never

sometimes i wonder
why is that several songs do share their title?

tulisan rojak

at one point
we just need to sit back
and reflect on things that had happen




and you,
trust me
your little lies will lead you to a bigger lie





rasa agak keliru
macam mana agaknya nak bagi appointment kat patient kalau tak dapat lagi jadual?
hanya perlu berharap yang mereka akan sentiasa free 24/7
so that setiap kali call mereka tiada alasan untuk tidak datang ke klinik





fakulti semakin ceria dengan wajah-wajah baru doctors yang sudah tamat pengajian
rupanya ramai doctor yang tak sempat berjumpa dulu-dulu
dan masih ramai yang bakal pulang dalam masa terdekat (setahun tu kira terdekat juga)







buat kawan-kawan yang dah tamat pengajian
tahniah!
buat yang mendirikan rumahtangga juga tahniah!
yang mendapat cahaya mata juga tahniah!
semoga dengan segala nikmat ini
kesyukuran kita semua bertambah :D







p/s: la tahzan.. Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang kita perlukan

confuse

as time flies
things changed
but i  never thought that
deep down inside my heart
something remains


perhaps it's just another memory
and perhaps it's just another hope


it was my hope
and i don't even know if it still is


and now
the only thing that i can do is that
hoping for the best
expecting the worst

mixed

agak jakun di sini
USIM dah ada portal baru untuk undergrad students
the coolest part is
results ever since in first sem first year up to the latest
being able to re-read the results is actually a mixture of feeling
how time flies
how things had changed
how we, ourselves performed


esok barulah boleh mendaftar untuk semester baru setelah setiap hari sibuk buka portal sebab takut terlupa

Alhamdulillah atas segala rezeki dari Allah



attachment kali ini terasa seperti lebih jelas dengan apa yang akan berlaku apabila bekerja nanti
mampu ke nak restore gigi patient dalam masa 5 minit?
ya Allah
permudahkanlah segalanya


selama ni dengar je
tapi ni kali pertama melihat sendiri patient yang didiagnose dengan trigeminal neuralgia
and of course
we don't want to trigger the pain to the patient


banyak kali juga membuat community service, roadshow dan OHI
tapi inilah kali pertama rasa sangat mencabar dan berdebar untuk toothbrushing drill bersama kanak-kanak istimewa yang mempunyai masalah pendengaran
tapi thanks to one colleague yang bagi demo tadi
and it is a new experience to us all

banyak benda nak tulis
tapi malas tu lagi hebat

okay
walaupun cuti taklah begitu lama
tapi cukup sangat untuk membuatkan diri sendiri bermalas-malasan di tahap yang chronic

rasa macam semalam baru menapak dalam dentistry
dan pooof
tiba-tiba dah nak masuk tahun 5

baru di hari pertama attachment dah dengar dan nampak macam-macam ragam
membuatkan rasa macam teeeeet

kata kena daftar course
tapi macam takde apa-apa pun