dia yang mengingatkan II

doc: mana folder patient yang saya nak sign?

me: kat sini doktor.. tapi buku....

doc: hmmmm... saya yang cabut gigi patient tu tadi

me: doktor sign untuk LA je la kot

doc: takpe, saya sign je gigi tu untuk awak

me: tapi, doktor yang cabut

doc: dalam klinik kita bukan nak awak sentiasa dapat cabut semua gigi.. tak guna jugak kalau cabut banyak tapi semua gigi mobile.. benda macam ni yang awak perlu untuk belajar..

me: terima kasih doktor!

yup

that's true

it's about learning

no doubt sangat heaven perasaan dapat cabut gigi

but fail to extract saya dapat melihat skill pakar

still i manage to see how the specialist suture the gingiva

it's meaningful in its own way

:)

Allah

matikan saya dalam iman

matikan saya dalam kematian yang baik

amin

i don't blame you

i don't blame you when you said you are stupid when your marks is obviously higher than me

i blame myself for not praising you for the good grades that you have

i don't blame you for letting me cry and tense alone

i blame myself for letting you to watch me crying

i don't blame you for not telling me the truth about everything that happen to you

i blame myself for not be able to be a good friend to you

i don't blame you for the feel of sucks that you have even when you are better than me

i blame myself for not congratulating you for each and every achievements of yours

i don't blame you when you are tense on your workloads

i blame myself for letting you to become a leader when i know you can't

i don't blame you for making me hating you like hell

i blame myself for the feeling that i can't resist to feel

i don't blame you for making me cursing you like a mad hatter

i blame myself for expecting things too high from you

i don't blame you for making me to called you a hypocrite

i blame myself for trusting you in the first place

indeed

i don't blame you for everything that happen

i blame myself for my feelings

for my emotions

for my expectations

i don't blame you for what had happen

i blame myself for everything

Allah

berikan kekuatan

rabbi sahhilna

iAllah

kita terlupa, dia ingatkan

benar

Allah jadikan setiap perkara yang berlaku ke atas kita bersebab

setiap yang berlaku punya asbab

punya hikmah

saya terlupa

lalu dia mengingatkan

Allah datangkan dia sebagai medium

syukur

masih lagi diberi peluang

masih berkesempatan untuk fikir

untuk renung apa yang dah dilakukan

doc: sakit itu tanda Allah kasih dan sayangkan awak. semakin dekat awak denganNya, semakin banyak dugaan yang diberi. macam nabi-nabi kita, kerana kasih, Allah menduga.

saya: betul tu doktor

Allah

mungkin sakit inilah yang mendekatkan aku padaMu

sungguh

kifarah pada dosa-dosa silam

selama ni aku terlalu lalai dan alpa

asifni

astaghfirullahal'azim

ya Allah

moga Kau hidup dan matikan aku dalam iman

amin

saya suka tengok patient yang gembira lepas buat treatment

:)

semoga kami diberi peluang untuk menggembirakan hati-hati mereka

tq Allah

tak perlu berputus asa

tak usah bersedih

apa yang penting

teruskan usaha

yang terbaik itu tak mesti dinilai dari hasil

yang penting usaha

kerana pengalaman adalah cikgu yang terbaik

doc: kes patient awak ni complicated

saya: semua kes patient saya macam tu

doc: awak takde patient lain ke?

saya: saya dah ada 3 patients, tapi semua pun ada masalah

takpe kucingred

it's not about fulfilling your requirements

it's all about gaining knowledge and experience

iAllah

tak rugi pun

:)

i see

i touch

i hear

things are always differ

for me

you

us

them

be it hard to endure

be it difficult to swallow

be it painful to be faced

life must go on

who are you to judge their life?

how do you know their very own life?

why do you think they are better?

what is good for you might not be for them

and what is bad for you might be good for them

that's how life goes

accept it because He knows what best for you

insyaAllah

rabbi sahhilna

:)

no title

doc: are you thinking of something that bother you a lot?

me: no doc.. and i think i'm happy

doc: indeed.. you look so happy

i hope that i really am happy

not only being happy to camouflage my own feelings

and i still think that i'm happy

:D

big smile from me :D