Berbelah bahagi

Ya Rabb
Hati ini milik-Mu
Kau permudahkanlah segalanya buat hamba-Mu yang hina ini





Dalam hati terasa ada ribut
Tak dapat digambarkan

Half of me saying that everything is going to be okay
The other half is saying that this is not what I want


Allah...
Dah sejauh ni aku melangkah
Untuk berpatah balik seakan sukar
Untuk terus melangkah terasa payah


Ya Allah,
Permudahkanlah
Moga jalan yang dipilih ini jalan yang Kau redhai
Jalan yang membawa aku semakin hampir dengan-Mu
Jalan yang menghapus duka, membuang derita



Aku rindu....

Alhamdulillah
Pasca exam, kami berpeluang berjalan satu KL
Sesat tapi seronok
Berpeluang menerokai bandar Kuala Lumpur
Singgah di sana sini



Tadi berpeluang singgah Asar di sebuah masjid
Allah....
Rasa sayu mendengar muazzin melaungkan azan
Rasa rindu
Rindu yang teramat
Terasa diri jauh



Terkadang terlalu leka
Sampai tak sedar masa memecut meninggalkan kita
Masih di sini terkulat-kulat
Terlupa yang hidup ada tujuan
Allah....



Allahu rabbi
Thabitkan hati ini untuk agamaMu

Dah lama rasanya tak berhempas pulas dan bergelumang sekitar nota-nota
Ada rasa kekok di situ
Berdebar-debar
Cemas

Allah....
Permudahkanlah segalanya

Oh! Our feet are the same size...

Walk in my shoes they said
Frankly if you don't walk in their path, you'll never understand

Having such experiences made me realize that I can acknowledge people better
To understand their happiness
To comfort their worries
To handle their disappointment

I pray that Allah swt bless my patients for their kindness, patience and all the knowledge that I gain from them

While facing patient's disappointment in that suspicious case
I talk to the patient with a very low tone
InsyaAllah we'll get through this
Not only that I've walked this path before
Our feet are the same size and it is the same shoes!

and i thought...

Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who tought you were my friend
How I was to know
You never told me!
(Fool again-Westlife)

I'm trying my best to get over you

If that's what you wish for

Trust me,

Truth is painful

And so I thought you were my friend

But seems to me that I was mistaken

heart broken

Disclaimer: If you are a peace lover, please leave this post instantly. Any emotional and mental damage following this post is not to be blamed on kucingred.



Heart broken
Frustration
Depression
And all the negativity had been following me since past days
There is no exact single word that i can say to express what i've faced
I keep on thinking why thing happen the way it is
And it was so frustrating


After 5 years of struggle in my course
I have to admit that I am disappointed with my colleagues
I'm not saying all
But admit it
Truth is harsh


Yesterday when i met a patient
My heart was like exploding for what i've faced
During that 4 hours session i was having a mental breakdown of what some people that i know had done to their patient
That person is happily going to graduate this weekend
And leaving us back here with a total disaster to be cleaned
Trust me
This is so frustrating
This is not the first time
But i hope it will be the last one


I don't give you a damn if your patient is fussy or what so ever
Just try to put yourselves into their shoes
Would you like to be treated the same as what you have done?
You've learned and you knew
You are supposed to understand
But how could you do that to your patient?
How dare you?


Cynically,
Thanks to you
We are the one who should break the bad news to the patient


Sincerely,
Thank you so much
For giving me opportunities to learn something new


Seriously,
I don't give a damn what are your grades
I don't give a damn how you could graduate
But PLEASE
Use your knowledge wisely
I'm begging you


On the bright side,
We have been reminded on all the beautiful lies










Foot note: This isn't nice but I've warned you
Hand note: People are mean when we are desperate
Eye note: I don't mention any name. So, ........... (fill in the blank with suitable answer)


Last but not least
Thank you people for the birthday wishes and presents
I love you guys so much :)


And my former clinical partner
Selamat Pengantin Baru, Nusaibah dan Harith
Moga berkekalan hingga ke syurga


Happy Graduation Day, friends!
:)

Thanks a lot

Thank you
For this opportunity

Thank you
For this experience

Thank you
For the trust

Thank you
For your support

Thank you
For every single thing


Did I ever mention that I like you?
If not then
I like you so much that I want to thank you for everything
Yes, you!



Patience kucingred
Patience
:)


Everything will do
InsyaAllah :)