a week...

isnin-25 jan 10

birthday hanisah yg ke 21....

ada ujian bertulis subjek hafazan...surah al-muzzammil..

the test was not okay...

lupa and tertukar perkataan..tertinggal ayat and perkataan..

selasa-26 jan 10

'salam,gtaw dak laen,pg ni kt lab tgkt 12'- just a simple msg from class rep to inform yg pg tu class kt tgkt 12...mcm2 assumption yg kitorg wat and bila sampai kat tgkt 12..barulah tahu...

pg tu ada practical behavioural science and oral health..COMMUNICATION!!!!!!!!!!

rabu-27 jan 10

lab-wat tooth setting

lecture pathology

lecture and a bit demo optech

khamis-28 jan 10

hari optech sedunia minggu ni..usually hari rabu

just ada class creative thinking and problem solving selama sejam

jumaat-29 jan 10

birthday farhah yg ke 21...

lecture dental materials dental technology

presentation pharmacology

...mmMMmm...

let me share something which i think interesting

- i just discover that several friends of mine do not know my real name- what a joke or it just me being soooo confident that we are friends
- i just know that milk can reduce our headache and dysmenorrhea but at the same time, it can cause git disturbances
- people usually getting happier when their leave their school's uniform- if you understand what i mean
- i just learn that flourosis only affected child whom his/her enamel does not completely develop yet i still do not get why an adult must use small amount of toothpaste with flouride

HEY, YOU!!!

hey, you!!!
stop saying words that make others feel like they want to slap your face...
stop acting something that make others feel like they want to vomit...
stop doing things that make people feel annoy to you...
stop making others increase their hatred to you...


STOP!!!

please...

i'm begging you......


please be thankful for what you have right now
please put yourself into others' shoes
please be concern to others' feelings


PLEASE....

i'm begging you!!!!!!!!


don't make me curse you in front of your face...
help me
and save me from cursing yourself....


HEY, YOU...

please help me...

I'M BEGGING YOU!!!

0_o

how hard could my heart be?
for not forgetting after forgiving another people...

how empty could my heart be?
for being lonely in the middle crowd...

how sad could my heart be?
for me to cry till all my tears are dry...

how difficult could my heart be?
for me not to understand my own feelings...

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i don't know what is happening to me
i don't know why is that so difficult to understand our own feelings

idk
idk
idk

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am i normal??

kenapa ye..
kdg2 aku rasa macam dah tak centre?
adakah aku ni mengalami gangguan mental
atau menghidap masalah psikiatri?

kdg2 gak aku rasa cam ada gangguan emosi yg berlebihan
aku ni ada masalah mental ke?
ke ada gangguan apa2?

kenapa ngan aku ni???

-idk-

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manjakah diri ini?
jika ya, mengapa?
jika tidak, kenapa?


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aku yang tersentak

i am afraid

i am afraid

i'm afraid of darkness
when there is no stars in the skies
when there is no moon above there
when it is all black and dark

i'm afraid of silence
when silence means lonely
when silence is killing you
when you know that you are left behind

i'm afraid of dejection
when tears is your best friend
when every single things are vexing
when it is too hard for you to endure

i am afraid...

yes i am
and
yes i do

i am afraid....



am i trying to escape or what?

bila diri....

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

bila diri mula menjauh
bukan bermakna hati membenci

bila diri mula menangis
bukan beerti hati tak terima

bila diri mula menyepi
bukan tandanya hati dah bosan

bila diri mula membatu
bukannya tanda tak ambil tahu

terkadang bila diri terlanjur berdusta
bukan hati cuba meluka

hakikatnya...
diri terluka
hati terseksa
jiwa merana

tapi
digagahkan juga diri menelan
dikuatkan juga hati menyimpan
dibiar juga jiwa bertahan
asalkan
yang tersayang itu tahunya tidak
yang tercinta itu lukanya tiada

akhirnya
diri sendiri merana
rahsia itu tersemat di jiwa

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

bila dah lama tak jumpa

mmmmmmmm...............

bila dah lama tak jumpa..
macam-macam yg dah berubah
kadang-kadang tu
sampai dah tak kenal...

sejak i buka account facebook ni
i slalu usha kawan-kawan i time sekolah dulu
perempuan
lelaki
senior
junior
pendek kata
sesiapa yg terlintas di minda ni mmg la i cari
saje nak tengok camne kehidupan dorg sume lepas abeh sekolah

bila dah tengok tu
mcm2 la kan
ada yg nampak sama je
ada yg berubah tp still boleh nak cam
ada gak yg totally berubah- sampai nak cari gak tang mana yg sama tu pn xjumpa

well,
xkisah la i suka ke x kt dorg tu
tp bile tgk dorg gmbira i pun senang hati
seronok tgk org lain ni bahagia taw

yg dh grad
yg dh kerja
yg dh habis master
yg dh tunang
yg dh kahwin
yg dh dpt anak
i ucapkan tahniah dan syabas utk korg sume

yg masih ag study cam i ni
good luck n all the best untuk korg n diri i sendiri

yg masih single tu
jgn cdey2 k

buat yg diuji Allah (sama ada family or kenalan sakit/meninggal)
banyakkan bersabar ye

i doakan kejayaan kita bersama di dunia n akhirat....

menangis..

menangis tu terkadang perlu
sbb kdg2 tiada kata yg bisa terungkap
tiada perkataan yg bisa diucap

ingatkan selama ni aku tak kisah

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i know this person
just a little bit
just a basic thing for making friend with him
just knowing the name, the face, the class
i guess i never talk with him ever
i even don't have an idea about his voice
i also don't have an idea what is his style of messaging others

but
i don't know why
one day we had a fight
he 'said' something that all the girls and women in the entire world couldn't accept
and i was like WTF
and obviously, i was hurt deeply

okay
he said sorry...
major sorry
and i forgiven him actually
-btw we haven't meet for a long time k

but,
again with but...haha
few days ago
i saw his fb
i was like OMG mintak2 la dia xjumpa fb aku-and what a stupid wish i had

mesti la dia jumpa
kata sama sekolah
aduhai, adoyai

at first, i just like hoping him not to find my fb
but then when i looked at his picture again and again (bese la, kan kt tepi tu ada friend suggestion sbb ada mutual friend)
surprisingly,
i am hurt again and again
wahahahahahaha macam la aku putus cinta dengan dia

i thought all this while i don't care
but actually deep inside my heart i do wish i will not find him ever
cause it hurt me a lot
yes i do forgive him
and it seems that i cannot forget.......................... (not forgetting him but forgetting what he had done k)

baru kita tahu

bila kita tengok orang lain kena marah
orang tu pulak rasa geram
kita sesuka hati berkata
"kalau aku, mesti la aku tak kisah"

bila kita tengok orang lain geram kat orang lain
orang tu benci sampai berdendam
kita pun sesedap rasa cakap
"kalau aku la, watpe nak benci-benci kat orang ni"

bila kita tengok orang lain wat sesuatu perkara
and orang tu pulak bagi respon and opinion
kita pun tanpa berfikir a.k.a melazer
kita cakap satu benda yg sebenarnya kita pun xpernah fikir

kalau kita kena marah,
masa tu baru kita tahu
yang kita pun sebenarnya akan rasa geram

kalau kita geram dan benci,
masa tu kita baru tahu
yang kita ni pun sebenarnya berdendam

yang sebenarnya...
bila kita berhadapan dengan situasi tu
baru kita tahu kenapa orang lain bertindak begitu....

perasaan meroyan di pagi tahun baru

hari ni saya gembira sangat

itu adalah kerana Allah telah berikan saya kesempatan untuk hidup pada tahun yang baru..

selain tu,
saya juga gembira kerana sekarang ni pelajar tahun 2 FPg USIM tengah cuti midsem (sedangkan yang kat nilai baru je seminggu naik sem baru)

juga gembira kerana berjaya install anti-virus yang baru (dulu saya pakai norton, sekarang ni guna kaspersky IS 2010) mungkin tahun depan saya kena cuba anti-virus yg lain pulak =)

ehem...
saya jugak baru je bukak akaun facebook.. (ok, ni yang meroyan tu sebenarnya)
tp, xsampai sejam bukak akaun facebook tu saya dah rasa nak delete akaun tu ok...
jadi, memang harapan la saya nak bukak selalu..
ataupun mungkin saya bukak sebab nak usha kwn2 sekolah dulu....hahaha