teeet

daripada menyakiti and menyakitkan
baik diam


silence is a part of remedy




dan kadang-kadang jangan ditanya mengapa
sebab jawapannya melukai dan melukakan




biarlah masa menghapus luka

realistic or...

be realistic on setting goals and dreams
and keep on being optimist
don't aim things that can't be achieved by your laziness
or you'll just break your heart into pieces
and what even worst
you just make people around you freaking annoyed

it's not wrong for you to be idealistic
as long as you work hard for it
keep on being optimist
and you should know when to say i'm done with this
for at least when you stop
you know that your effort worth

don't try to be ideal if you keep on being pessimist
it's just so unrealistic
and unacceptable
don't bother to stress yourselves with the pressure you can't cope
and don't spread the pressure to others as they are all innocent

being real will be difficult if you are pessimist
they said no pain no gain
like it or hate it
reality is brutal


be optimist
as you'll find the strength
in every moves you made

be realistic
because this is not cartoon
it's gonna hurt when you fall


on top of all
we have Allah to be by our side
to keep on helping us
because
He knows
He knows us better than we know ourselves
He knows our capability
and that's why He's testing us



semoga dipermudahkan segalanya

lightheadedness

a true combination of several condition causes me that
Alhamdulillah, nothing bad happen



it's already been several days in Ramadhan
happy fasting everybody
may this Ramadhan will be better
and hopefully it won't be the last



buat kawan-kawan FPg
kawan-kawan junior, senior
and peer colleagues
all the best in exam
may Allah ease our way


terima kasih semua :)

kamu

kita terlupa
kadang-kadang
ketekunan kita itu yang memberi kekuatan pada yang lain





mungkin tak banyak boleh bantu
tapi percayalah
Allah tak pernah tinggalkan kita dalam apa jua perkara
insyaAllah
segalanya akan baik-baik saja






menangislah andai air mata itu menghapus derita

bla.. bla..

it is an awkward moment when things suddenly become differ
and it leads to i-don't-know-that-anymore situation



kadang-kadang makin kita rapat dengan seseorang tu
makin kita tak tahu tentang diri dia
-complicated-



masih setia menunggu episod terbaru masterchef US dan tak sedar diri yang minggu depan exam bermula

entah kenapa
kebelakangan ni tersangkut dengan lagu-lagu tentang lelaki yang helpless in love



pasta oh pasta

stay

If this world is wearing thin

And you're thinking of escape

I'll go anywhere with you

Just wrap me up in chains

But if you try to go alone

Don't think I'll understand

Stay with me

Stay with me

In the silence of your room

In the darkness of your dreams

You must only think of me

There can be no in between

When your pride is on the floor

I'll make you beg for more

Stay with me

Stay with me

You'd better hope and pray that you make it safe

Back to your own world

You'd better hope and pray that you'll wake one day

In your own world

kalau hati kecut, jangan tengok original mv sorang2 waktu malam

change.. i bet it's not easy

experience,
a word with thousands description
you might have a good one and continue enjoying
you might have a good one and stop believing
you might have a bad one and continue to hope
you might also have a bad one and you stop to try


let me tell you a story of a girl that had a bad experience on something..
and she decided to gave up everything upon that something
and this is a true story
it happens to someone that is so dear to me..



it was back then in 2001
it's about 10 years ago
she just a common teenager
just like others
she just hated hostel as anybody in her age
things seem to be different in hostel
everything need to be done on your own
no mommies to tell
no siblings to help
it's about being independent

it is a religious school the place that she went
new routines
something new, something huge
she learnt about Ma'thurat
started to hear elaboration on Hadith
and something called usrah

she knows that usrah is an arabic word means family
but she did not get the idea what an usrah is all about
and it's kinda surprise until the first usrah meeting
she was excited
"a family in hostel should be great!" that was her thought

unfortunately..
things weren't good
the first time of usrah was like a bully party
along with her first former members, they were mentally bullied by the seniors
the seniors kinda torturing them
and the others were literally see and do nothing
some even do enjoy that moment
ever since that
thing has changed
usrah is a torturing thing for her

same old things keep on repeating
she never like it
never do enjoy it
and never do understand of its purposes
she just don't want the old same thing to happen again
at least not to her
so, she avoids it- that is the best way of her to think off

then she moves to another school
hoping that this new environment is free from usrah
but she got it wrong
and she was appointed to be a naqibah (an usrah leader)
but she disliked it
and she skipped several usrah's session

how skeptic she was back then that she really didn't bother of what happen
she didn't care and didn't mind

step up to uni
things pretty much becoming better
as usrah in uni is like a secret mission
lots of different groups with different people and different interest
and she don't mind
she don't even bother on that at all

human,
how hard they be
how difficult they are
there is something called fitrah
an urge for doing good
an urge to be better
an urge to change
but she don't know where to start
and it's hard for her

she thinks of usrah
but the bad experiences prominent most
and she afraid that it would be the same
she don't want to has that kind of feelings again
she just don't want to

the intention to change being expressed
and some people who concern brought her to several programs
there were speakers that have changed for good
their advises were all the same
and it is
"if you want to change yourself, join an usrah. your sisters in usrah will give you courage and support in making your intention to a reality. they will remind you if you forget. they will guide you if you lost."
and the soft spot inside her heart touched with the words

she hopes that she could find an usrah that can give her courage and support,
that could guide and remind her what she intended to be
that not only talk about early marriage
not only about getting money to get married
but to bring her back to fitrah
and for her to be able to make decisions based on syariatullah and sunnatullah

may Allah ease her way
may Allah ease our way
may Allah guide us to the right path
insyaAllah



i'm not a story-teller
but this is a true story







sometimes, little thing has a great impact into someone's life

minggu belajar.. ok, i know korang dah exam...

memanglah diri ini
mengapakah ketika ini barulah sangat addicted to youtube
masa ni lah cerita kat tv tu best belaka
masa ni juga games dalam phone merayu-rayu minta dientertain
arrrggghhhhhhh


i fall in love with piano and violin
huhu
bilakah mungkin??


minggu depan yang sepatutnya minggu belajar tapi masih ada kelas dan perkara-perkara lain

exam dah mula
result mid-sem pula masih diperam-peram (except for 3subjects)
ok, fine



sangat addicted to masterchef
nak buat camno
nak masak tak pandai
tengok pun kira ok la
huhu

same mistakes

random thought

looking back on random things that happen to not only me
but people that surrounds me
how life has changed
how people changed
how things become so complicated and unexplained


we, all of us
we wanted to stay young
when problem seems to be just a word
not a thing to care off
and everything is just another new things in life


being an adult is another story
not to mention all the responsibilities
but i guess it matters not this time
thing seems to be like this
being adult is putting the blame on others
indeed
that's what we are doing
ego
never dare to admit the mistake
and keep on blaming others


laughs in a good day
smiles in a bad day
but tears and cries are everyday
don't think others were better
if you don't dare to walk in their shoes
you know them by name
but you don't really know what they have been through
stop,
then think



oh...
last Thursday level 12 was on fire
and pity me a cockroach climb my leg :(



all the best in examination for all
maa taufiq wan najah