Ada masa kita rasa tak cukup kuat untuk tempuh semua yang mendatang. Kadang-kadang, orang sekeliling pun lupa yang kita juga manusia. Ada ketika, kita masing-masing tak tahu apa yang kita mahu.

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Aku serah jiwa, raga dan hati ini padaMu ya Allah.
Pelihara dan jaga hati ini untuk agamaMu.
Permudahkan, jangan Kau sukarkan.
Perkenankanlah ya Allah.

mungkin betul...

Sejak memasuki fasa alam pekerjaan ni, macam-macam jenis manusia yang aku dah jumpa. Selalu staff dan kawan bagi analisis tentang diri aku. Daripada tempat posting pertama sampai yang terkini, kebanyakan orang bagi analisis yang sama tentang diri aku. Walaupun kadang-kadang rasa macam tak betul, tapi aku jadi terfikir. Sebab, kebanyakan orang cakap benda yang sama.

Kadang-kadang, bila berfikir panjang... aku pun tak tahu. Mungkin mereka betul. Sebab kadang-kadang, kita tak dapat nak menilai diri kita sendiri.

defining things

Currently I am so busy defining each and every single thing that I encountered in life. Seems funny but there how things work for me. Little did I realize that I am somehow a little bit pending.. Pity me and people I surround...


I work in a very unique environment I presumed. Everyone, I mean literally everyone in my working environment really like to tell you a summary of you, yourselves. For instance, someone would just randomly said "kucingred, you are so ......" Well, you gotta fill in the blank with any words you would like to. This thing really made me ponder a lot of things.. I mean for real, even without this situation I tend to overthink, what more to add this very particular thing..


So, I currently trying so hard defining certain words that are lingering in my daily life. Well, defining things is not an easy task afterall..

time

Time passes

In difficulties, in ease

Time moves

Even when I was petrified or stupefied

Time walks

When I laughed, when I cried

Time is connecting me and you

Good time passes, memories remain

Hard time passes, strength I gained

Thank you for your time

For sharing your little 24hours with me, thank you

For every moments we shared, thank you

Thank you for your very existance

for you...

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah atas segala nikmat selama aku masih bernafas di bumi ini..

Today I would like to write about people.. 

Alhamdulillah..

I've been blessed by nice people that surrounds me. Sometimes I feel so shy, embarrased because people keep on pouring their love, care and everything that they could give to me.. and I on the other hand, just keep on recieving things from these people..

Seriously, I've been blessed so much with their very existance..

I still remember, I was scold by a patient.. the patient ran amok in the clinic.. and I literally cried in front of the patient because of the incident.. and there my assistant, scolding the patient back for me.. telling him not to insult someone else's job.. my assistant was so nice towards me....

When I cried because I was so stressed and depressed, there were my colleagues (officers, assistants) lending their ears and keep on motivating me.. trying their very hard to ensure that I am fine and able to function like a normal me.. they were so nice..

There were times when I am having a very bad dysmenorrhea, lightheadedness and fever.. they were sending me to the hospital, clinic and get the medications for me.. they were great..

O Allah, I've been blessed by all these people that keep on showing their kindness, love and care for me..

I am touched by their kindness..

Ya Allah, 

Limpahkan rahmat dan kasih sayangMu pada mereka

Permudahkanlah urusan mereka

Dan semoga kami semua dapat berkumpul di syurgaMu

Amin

Sejujurnya, rasa tak layak..

Sangat-sangat terharu

Terima kasih semua

Atas kasih sayang kalian

Aku sayang kamu kerana Allah

Terima kasih kerana menerima aku seadanya

Dan terima kasih kerana menjadikan aku, aku yang sekarang