dilemma

dilemma of a student i guess

the books are quite expensive T_T

how i wish i can buy the atlas

seriously, i love it damn much

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people are basically the same

but how they react are differ

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like is mentioned by mouth

love is mentioned by heart

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stop liking is sick

stop loving is dying

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tears in your eyes

disappointed in your heart

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huhuhu

i do feel like my soul is trapped in someone else's body
arghhhhhh
this is insane
i'm totally out of it

i'm way too tired
even my ear is hearing things differently
it also feels pain all over my body
shoulder, ankle
even my teeth

i really feel disappointed in the clinic today
for ohi it was not that bad
but for the scaling
it was not only horrible
i also feel that it was disastrous

lately i always feel uneasy
i don't know why

once again to myself
welcome to the torture phase
i really
i mean REALLY
need to use my right hand to
hold the handpieces
the contra angle is seriously too heavy for my right hand
the scaler is acceptable- if we were talking on the weight
but....
to control that particular thing was really difficult

o Allah
please help me

a mixture of....

seriously,

this is a combination of tachycardia, pain in tonsil & ear, confusion

and it all lead to severe unexplainable condition

why oh why every first day of the week these kind of feelings appear?

as usual, i'm not ready

not in mood

not in a state of accepting things

is this stress?

i can't sleep due to these feelings

help me

maturity???

how can i gain maturity?

tell me

sepatutnya, skang ni not the time for me for being too childish

maybe all this while i'm being too immature i guess

seriously i am hurt to thing that i'm not suppose to hurt

i cried for thing that actually i'm not suppose to cry

and bla..bla..bla...

tolong la...

wake up dear

do realize

things are already change

time also pass by...

touching....

emotionally unstable

tak tentu pasal nak touching :(

mood swing

have you ever listen to songs that are really describing yourselves?

making you realize that actually you are not the only person to feel that kind of feelings

have you ever feel the pain of being hurt till you cannot breath?

making you realize how much you love the person that's hurting you

have you ever cry a lot till you really couldn't stop your tears?

making you realize how nothing is actually something in your life

have you ever lost someone that makes you feel empty?

making you realize how important they were in your life

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if only i have that strength, i'll tell you today that I LOVE YOU

not only today, tomorrow and insyaAllah, always

i put hope on the best

but am will accept it with an open heart

perkenankan...

letih

mungkin kerana bercuti sebelum ni

mungkin juga penat angkut barang and pergi team building tu masih belum habis lagi

mungkin juga disebabkan suntikan vaksin hep b

tapi yang pasti

walaupun baru 2 hari

ia sangatlah meletihkan

rasa nak bukak mata pun tak larat

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i kind of allergy dengan certain people yg shall i say g-pang

but serious shit kerja pun x buat

ya Allah...

ada juga species homo sapiens yg begini

T_T

i pun xbagus- i admit it

tp i try utk wat kerja i ok

cis

xtahu ke benda tu amanah?

ingat nak glamour je ke ngan jawatan anda tu?

haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

no offence k

siapa makan cili dia yg terasa pedas

and ni peringatan utk diri i sendiri gak

cHow~