another side of me

it's been a while for me not to feel these kind of feelings

then it comes again

i do think that i am mentally distress without me noticing it

and i think that i am facing the psychogenic pain

and at this moment

i don't know which is which

which i don't understand of my own feelings

all the symptoms suit several differential diagnoses

which then making it to be so unpleasant

at the mean time

i hope that it won't be something that too serious

let it be something which is common and less side effects

i don't want to take numbers of medications

i don't want to undergo complex treatment procedures

i just want to be okay

i hope these feelings fade as time goes by

Allah

permudahkan segala urusan

tunjukkan kami jalan yang benar

bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang Kau redhai

amin