getting older

holla~

minggu ni terasa sangat panjang

walaupun baru minggu pertama setelah cuti sem

tapi perasaan seakan sudah berbulan-bulan bergelumang dengan kelas dan klinik

masakan tidak

klinik kami yang dulunya pada hari isnin dan khamis telah bertambah satu hari lagi

iaitu hari jumaat

klinik yang dahulunya conservative dentistry dan prosthodontics sahaja telah ditambah dengan oral surgery, periodontics dan paediatric dentistry

mengundang kepenatan dan kelesuan barangkali

klinik bertambah bermakna keperluan untuk mencari patient juga bertambah

berapa ramai rakyat malaysia yang tinggal berdekatan ampang yang memerlukan khidmat rawatan pergigian?

berapa ramai di antara kalian yang mempunyai masalah gigi berlubang?

berapa ramai antara anda yang perlu dicabut giginya?

berapa ramai dalam kalangan kanak-kanak yang punya kekuatan untuk berjumpa doktor gigi?

ya Allah,

permudahkan urusan kami

note: thanks to all for the birthday wishes and presents....to housemates, thanks sbb temankan makan steamboat and to seniors, thanks for the souvenirs from bandung...

love you guys..ukhwah fillah abadan abada!

i just want to write...

it's already two and a half years

and to be specific

it's already five semesters i've spent my time studying here i suppose

five semesters

not too long to make me feel that i am old enough at the moment

yet not too short that i've created lots of things and experienced tonnes of memories including the bad one and not to mention the good one

i still remember the first time i got the offer letter to fod

making me feel like i was dreaming

dentistry

spell it D.E.N.T.I.S.T.R.Y

it was and still i suppose

something rare

it's not like rare in term of awkward or bizarre

it just a little bit deviate from the normal curve

that's it

making it become quite a lot differ and special i guess

during the orientation week

i'm telling the truth that i dislike biology

i still remember one of the trainee lecturer asked

"if you don't like biology, then why you choose dentistry as your first choice?"

and the reason for me choosing this faculty in the first place is still the same

and that particular trainee lecturer said

"if that's so, why don't......."

and me just stand still

and smile i guess hearing the trainee lecturer or the dentist saying that sentences

the next day

i'm going to the dentist, asking for a sign

a task for freshies

and the dentist asked

"you are the one who dislike biology, don't you?"- asking me confidently

and me without hesitate just nodding my head

"introduce yourself" the dentist instructed me

and asked several questions

and before i go the dentist called me and said

"well, dentistry is not merely about biology. it's the combination of sciences and you'll find it is an interesting field to be explored"

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2 b continued

trauma or phobia

recently i have been in dental surgery for some treatment

but apparently, i am having a kind of trauma and phobia right now

anywhere i go and everywhere i sit

my olfactory nerve telling me that i am in a dental surgery

and the experiences of swallowing that sodium hypochloride made my taste buds telling me that i am still swallowing that solution

and frankly speaking

this condition annoys me a lot

all this while i never ever like dental surgery (but i am hoping that this will not last forever la)

and i really mean it

for all the dentists that work really hard to save my 35

i would like to express my gratitude to you guys for doing so

for all that being concern towards my tooth and pain

thank you so much for helping and being so nice

for all the advices and supports

may Allah bless you for doing so

thank you Allah

for another experience

another story

another day

doakan phobia and trauma saya cepat hilang

long time dear...special post to besties integomb

ya Allah....

it's like for years saya tak jumpa my best buddies kat integomb dulu

especially nab, farid and nisa

and thanks to You, for giving us an opportunity untuk berjumpa on last friday (only farid, nisa and me w/o nab)

seriously it was fun

lots of stories, memories and things yang kita share

faridah is a dental student in egypt and nisa is a civil engineering student in utp

nisa sebenarnya dulu nak amek dentistry and me was actually nak amek engine but it ends up she's taking engine while me taking dentistry :) and farid mmg nak amek dentistry sejak dr sekolah lagi :)

now, each one of us dah ada dalam path masing-masing and i hope all of us akan berjaya :)

we've already lost contact dgn nab ever since dia habis matrik...but recently we've found out yg dia ada kt mmu amek law... also pray the best for her...

to nisa, farid and nab...

love you guys so much.. still remember doing all those stupid things during zaman sekolah..enjoy our outing together and all those things...love and miss u guys so much

may our friendship remains and semoga persahabatan kita diredhaiNya...

goodbye dear

it's almost 15 years you are with me

almost 15 years you never leave me

all the happiness and all the tears we've face together

thank you for every happiness you gave me

thank you for the pain that you caused

thank you for the tears when i cannot bear

thank you for holding on until the very end

for not taking good care of you, i'm so sorry

for the pain that i caused you to feel, totally sorry

for the pain you caused me to feel, at least i know that i still have you

for crying because of you, i realize that you are there

thank you for everything

and goodbye dear

permanent mandibular right first molar, 46

i'm gonna miss you

thanks again for holding on until the very end...

tq

1530

debat???

minggu2 yg baru saja berlalu ni terlalu amatlah sibuk

ini merupakan kali pertama dalam hidup aku menyertai pertandingan yg serius iaitu debat yg sgt berprestij untuk universiti kami- debat piala naib canselor- antara fakulti

fpg diwakili oleh 2 pasukan iaitu

FPg A

zahrah-2nd yr

diyana-1st yr

haziq-1st yr

masyitah-1st yr

dan FPg B

zahid-1st yr

nurin-2nd yr

aku-2nd yr

amalina-2nd yr

dlm minggu pertama tu we all kena lwn 5x iaitu 3x pd hari sabtu and 2x pd hari ahad

sabtu

gosip pemangkin kejayaan artis

FPg A dan B sbg kerajaan

demokrasi malaysia: retak menanti belah

FPg A pembangkang, FPg B kerajaan

sukan kita indah khabar dari rupa

FPg A dan B kerajaan

ahad

sistem pendidikan menyemai perpaduan

FPg A kerajaan, FPg B pembangkang

misi ke angkasa lepas wajar diteruskan

FPg A dan B pembangkang

usul bagi quarter adalah

setelah 53 tahun, bahasa melayu semakin dilupakan

FPg B sbg pembangkang

sepanjang perdebatan ni aku boleh kata yg kitorang semua mmg dapat byk sangat pengalaman..

mcm2 benda yg kitorang jumpa..

team emo...team yg kelakar..judge yg menakutkan..

tp semua tu mmg 1 pengalaman baru yg menarik...

akhir kalam..

pray for our 2nd pro exam

it remains

my heart full of hatred

it always so hurt till it can bleed easily

how i wish i can end this pain as soon as i can

how i wish it is so easy for me to escape

how i wish i've never been here

how i wish this place never exist in the first place

yes

it is so hard

too much pain

a lot of hatred

full of bad memories

it's too much

my heart

my soul

my very own thought cannot bear this

I AM SUFFER!!!

i used to cry a lot during my not so good memories of life

it causes pain a lot in my life

and without me realizing it,

it changes my life as well

apart from all those suffer

the pain

the hatred

i found lots of memories that are too sweet to be forgotten

during kuliah session- either kultim(kuliah 3 minit), kuliah maghrib@subuh, tazkirah

during musolla session- hadith, fiqh, berzanji, tasauf

kitab discussion session- apa ertinya saya menganut islam, hadith 40, penawar bagi hati

kemahiran al-quran session- tarannum, qiraat, hafazan

reciting yasin, al-ma'thurat

makan dalam talam

all of this are not forgotten

how i wish to hear cikgu rosli's tazkirah

how i miss all those ustazs to elaborate all the books

how i hope to be reminded everyday like it used to be

and how i wish all of this will come true

the sadness comes with happiness

the pain comes with the cure

the hatred comes with love

the suffer comes with bliss

and the experience comes after all of this :)

a long journey by train

this morning,

my mum, bro n i went to kl central

to send my lil bro back to his plkn camp in perak

we went there by ktm from kuang to kl central

from kuang station

there were a family consist of ma, pa, 4 boys n a girl

i don't know y both the parents just letting their sons

gaduhing and pukuling each other in that train

the bigger bro tolaking his adik till the lil bro jatuh n kena org lain

n that sis terbangun dari tidur dia ngan muka yg sangat terkejut

and her face was like luckily you are someone else's son

the parents just biarkan je anak2 dia memekak and ganggu gugat ketenangan orang lain

serius tak pakai otak punya orang la

kepong central

a group of teenagers i guess entered the train

with very annoying face n attitude in a public transport

boleh pulak dia n d gang dgn lagu pasang loud speaker

hello bro...this is not ur train okay

an old guy yg stand besides me buat muka ngn mamat tu

tapi leh lak dia buat muka tenuk

yg x leh blah tu

dia siap kuatkan lagi volume speaker tu

serius mmg x sekolah punya orang

kl central

at last

sampai gak dengan hati yang bengang n membara ngn species homo sapiens yang ala-ala x bertamadun tu

after my lil bro berkumpul ngn kwn2 dia

kami pun balik ke rumah

kl central hala balik

we entered the train and my mum sat next to a girl whom sit next to an uncle

in front of the girl is also a girl which is the younger sister..

so, the adik is wearing plkn punya kemeja

and my mum pun sembang la dgn both of the girls

sembang punya sembang sampai la stesen kepong central

one of petugas ktm dtg to check the passenger's ticket

sampai kt 2org beradik n uncle tu;

pakcik ktm: ni 2 ni tiket sapa?

adik: tiket kak n ayah saya

pakcik ktm: ni tak sah ni..tiket ni sampai kl central je..

kakak: kitorg ingat kitorg nak patah balik nanti sebab kitorg bkn nak turun pun...

pakcik ktm: ni salah ni..kena bayar sorg rm30..xadil bagi org lain naik byr tambang tp awak xbyr

ayah: ayah cakap dah tadi..korg xnak dgr

pakcik ktm: xpe la..saya tolong pakcik..bayar je rm30 utk 2orang..

kakak pun bukak dompet tp ada 2/3 keping duit rm1

dia pun amek la duit dlm wallet ayah

mmg btol2 tinggal sekeping rm50

after settle bayar tu

ayah: ayah cakap dah tak boleh..awak degil..awak xnak dengar cakap ayah...nasib baik ayah bawak ni (sambil tunjuk tongkat)..orang tu suruh bayar rm30

kakak: ayah jgn nak salahkan kakak..kakak mana tahu tak boleh..biasa kakak buat xde masalah pun

ayah: ayah naik selama ni pun xde masalah..ayah mmg x sedap hati dari tadi lagi nak jalan ngan korg..ayah sedih..korg degil tak nak dengar cakap ayah..

kakak: nanti kakak ada duit kakak bayar balik la duit ayah tu

ayah: xpayah byr..ayah sedih anak2 xnak dengar cakap ayah

-the father was saying this with tears rolling...

it was sooo sad...

i feel very pity towards that uncle n at da same time i'm sooo mad dekat kakak

my mum terkedu and her face changed

my mum n i wanted to give some money to the uncle but if we do so,

his daughter may be xdapat kesedaran...

can u imagine..

blind...

with no money..

travel...

i hope that uncle had enough money untuk sampai ke destinasi yg sepatutnya dia pergi

what a long~~~ journey by train today......

when things appear to be... part 1

case 1:

cikgu: pelajar semua hendaklah sentiasa jujur dalam kehidupan seharian. biar pun kadang2 kejujuran kita tu akan melukakan hati sesetengah pihak, tapi kamu semua harus ingat.. jujur merupakan satu perkara yang mulia dalam hidup ni

keesokannya

pelajar: cikgu... kelas hari ni sangat membosankan

cikgu buat muka berkecil hati dan sebelum sempat cikgu berkata sesuatu

pelajar: kan cikgu cakap, jujur merupakan perkara yang mulia dalam hidup. saya terpaksa jujur walaupun saya tahu cikgu akan terluka

case 2

isteri: abang, adik saya yang mengandung tu kan, teringin sangat nak makan rendang air tangan orang ****

suami: okay sayang.. kita balik kg abang ye mintak tolong orang sana buatkan untuk adik sayang..and then, kita pun balik la kg ayang

di kampung si suami

kakak otai: ekau nak, ekau buek sendiri..eden xdo maso..banyak laei bondo yg eden nak buek..baek la eden jago makan minam apak samo omak den..buek apo eden nak gombalo ipar ekau

kakak yg 'mulia': eden buleh tolong buekkan..tp ekau siapkan la brg2 nak buek rondang tu

after 2 rendang siap dimasak

sume pakat balun dan tibai rendang akak otai

rendang akak yg 'mulia' ditinggalkan begitu sahaja

suami n isteri pun tapaukan rendang akak otai k