coward...

i am a coward

right now i'm just trying hardly to run away from the situation

seriously

i cannot face the reality

i am depress

i wanna cry, but i can't

i wanna scream, but i can't

i want to express the hatred, but i can't

i want to be honest, but i can't

i hate hypocrisy

but i guess i am a hypocrite

hypocritical as if i really don't care

i hate myself for being such person

as i can't be honest

i hope i can go far away

hoping that sorrows and dejections fail to find me

leave me alone

don't bother my life

leaving me smile happily

inside out

you can lie others but not yourself

the pain, sorrows, dejections and hatred you keep inside

will always be there

even if the wounds heal

the scars will always remind you of the pain

sometimes if you are hurt by others

silence is the best thing to do

if you afraid you might hurt others

just shut your mouth and let you yourself face the pain alone

and

pray so that it is the best for you

by the way

i'm a coward

that is why i'm expressing my emotion here